I wanna be skinny...

I wanna be skinny again! I used to be so cute, and I never realized it. I thought I was fat at size 7/9, and now 7 weeks pp I just want to cry. Well I have been actually. I have been on the bigger side my whole life. like 160 lbs. in high school i lost 20 lbs and it made a big difference. then i blew up to 200. 3 years later i got back to 150, and size 9. i was so happy and had an ok amount of confidence on good days. then i got preggrrs   but nowI'm having an incredibly hard time losing the baby weight. Not even a lb has dropped since delivery besides the 20 lbs from birth. But I still have 40 to lose  I know I know give it time. It's hard though! I go back to work next week and will still be in maternity clothes. I envy the women who bounce back quick. My body is so prone to weight gain when my hormones get messed with. I pray and hope that getting on bc will regulate me and it falls off like last time. I smurfing swore to myself I wasn't going to gain over 35 lbs. but it just packed on the last few weeks after not gaining any weight until halfway in my 2nd trimester. I'm asking SO for a scale for Christmas, that's how desperate I am to lose this weight. I have been starving! I only eat a little since I'm breastfeeding otherwise I would eat like a handful of food a day and that's it. Do I sound crazy? I just want to fit into my clothes and feel sexy for SO. I wouldn't even let him go down on me or play with me last night because i don't want him near my belly. I just gave him a blow job and he seemed so bummed out. I know I distance myself when I feel unattractive and it's not fair to him. I've posted another thread about losing weight but this was more of a cry for encouragement and support. I don't have any friends here and I could text or call but they don't really get it. They are still pre baby and skinny, and just tell me it's ok it will come off. NO!! I need to hear I can do it, they will help me, or just some ideas on how to be patient and love my body no matter how flabby my tummy is. Thanks for reading if you did, I needed to let that out! I would like to start some kind of support group or join one and keep track with others on weight loss and share tricks. Idk, maybe I'm meant to be fat.

I gained 70 lbs both times.

It takes an extreme amount of dedication and hard work, but it's possible!


It just takes time   and exercise! I did the 30 day shred 3 times!

I used to think the same thing. I'm 5'8 and was a size 6/7 in high school. I thought I was chubby and needed to lose weight. Now I'm disgusting. It freaking sucks!!!

<blockquote><b>Quoting T-Swizzle+2:</b>" I gained 70 lbs both times. It takes an extreme amount of dedication and hard work, but it's possible! It just takes time   and exercise! I did the 30 day shred 3 times!"</blockquote>




I've heard of that, how do I get it? I was gonna post pics but I'm too embarrassed.

<blockquote><b>Quoting A&J. ♥:</b>" I used to think the same thing. I'm 5'8 and was a size 6/7 in high school. I thought I was chubby and needed to lose weight. Now I'm disgusting. It freaking sucks!!!"</blockquote>




Hell ya! If I can just get back down I will NEVER call myself fat again lol I wish I was that tall! You must hold weight well though like proportioned

I think you just wrote my life story.
To the 'T'.

<blockquote><b>Quoting SaraSaraBoBara:</b>" I think you just wrote my life story. To the 'T'."</blockquote>




Lol well I'm kinda glad I'm not alone! But it sucks :/ it's such a challenge and to keep doing it over and over...  

Quoting Rydicule91:" <blockquote><b>Quoting SaraSaraBoBara:</b>" I think you just wrote my life story. To ... [snip!] ... Lol well I'm kinda glad I'm not alone! But it sucks :/ it's such a challenge and to keep doing it over and over...  "

i know  
but literally...i didn't gain weight until the latter half of the 2nd trimester...used to be a 7/9...all that! i'm taking adipex right now but not every single day and i'm almost out and can't afford to go back to the dr. i've lost a little over 10 pounds but i'm still not anywhere close to where i need to be. that was just the 10 pounds i had gained in last couple of months. also doesn't help that im incredibly broke, can't get food stamps, and DS has a lot of food allergies so when we DO have money for groceries it all pretty much goes to what he can eat so there's not much left to buy healthy things that I like.

 

You can buy it anywhere... online or at walmart or target or whatever.

<blockquote><b>Quoting SaraSaraBoBara:</b>" i know   but literally...i didn't gain weight until the latter half of the 2nd trimester...used to ... [snip!] ... for groceries it all pretty much goes to what he can eat so there's not much left to buy healthy things that I like.  "</blockquote>




It will get better. Why don't you qualify for food stamps?

Quoting Rydicule91:" <blockquote><b>Quoting SaraSaraBoBara:</b>" i know   but literally...i didn't gain ... [snip!] ... to buy healthy things that I like.  "</blockquote> It will get better. Why don't you qualify for food stamps?"

they say SO makes too much money. But they go by the gross income when he gets a lot of things held out of his check. And they don't take into account all of our bills. They wouldn't even approve childcare so I had to get a student loan, and it takes it all pretty much..

Quoting SaraSaraBoBara:" they say SO makes too much money. But they go by the gross income when he gets a lot of things held out ... [snip!] ... all of our bills. They wouldn't even approve childcare so I had to get a student loan, and it takes it all pretty much.."

Yeah they say the other smurf isn't needed like internet/tv/cell phones. Even though if you don't have a land line I think a cell phone should be eligible. Whatever though...we get 238 a month to feed 2 1/2 people. And it was lowered because I went on maternity leave without pay so "Leave of Absence" and I don't have income for this month. But when I was working it was 367. My So makes about 1000 a month.

Quoting Rydicule91:" Yeah they say the other smurf isn't needed like internet/tv/cell phones. Even though if you don't have ... [snip!] ... "Leave of Absence" and I don't have income for this month. But when I was working it was 367. My So makes about 1000 a month. "

i think i'm gonna reapply since i'm having to pay for daycare now. it's 110 a week..
i do qualify for part b medicaid for my son where we still have a copay and when i turned in my updated paperwork it asked if i was having to pay for childcare.