Quoting Mandi Bass:" Thank you so much for your insight on my "situation". It's unbelievably relieving to have someone tell ... [snip!] ... help. Having a counselor, or even just another preemie mom on here to talk to would probably be a big help. Thank you again!"
glad I could be a little helpful.
Definitely feel free to pm me.
I have an idea, but only just, of what you went through. Mine were early, 32 weeks, so i got a taste of being a NICU mom. It's not fun. And this was *only* for one month. My heart goes out to you, with such a long stay.
But the day he comes home you'll start to be able to really heal yourself and your baby. Care of him will keep you plenty busy!
You'll start to be able to experience the motherhood that I'm sure you dreamt about when you first realized you were pregnant.
Even just those first few days, when you bathe and change and feed him, and hold him as much as you want, without wires: it will all be worth it
I do want to repeat that everything you're feeling, the good and the bad, is 100% OK and 100% understandable.