Quoting Youngteenmom12:" I had the abortion it felt like the worst thing I experienced I don't think I'll ever stop regretting ... [snip!] ... even feel like I even was allowed to make it for myself which makes me more angry but I guess I just am waiting on counseling"
aww sweetheart, i know what you're going through i promise it does get better- although i am a tough old bird at 32 i can;t imagine how much harder it must be at your tender age
i hope you get your counselling soon, and i hope your family are being supportive! getting you through this, listening to you when you need to talk, shutting up when you don't want to talk, taking you out for distractions, giving you affection and attention, offering any help they can. you need this., a good support network is essential in theis situation, i have been in it twice and couldnt have gotten through it without a good support network and counselling (and diazepam, not sure if you'd be allowed it at your age though and tbh if you can manage without it;s for the best, coz it's a bitch to come off it)
i am here for you if you need to message me, if you need to talk to someone who has been through what you are going through.
i promise it gets better. you don;t believe me now it feels like you destroyed your soul right now but trust me stay strong, you didnt destroy your soul, you CAN get through this, you WILL feel better, when your hormones have settled firstly, then with time you will heal. think to the future- and at 13 you have A LOT of it ahead of you... concentrate on healing emotionally first; then focus on a new hobby, or what your career goals are, or school, etc. and one day when the time is right, you can have a baby. don't let the depression win! or you won't get any of this nice stuff!
lots of love x x x x