Binge Eating Disorder

I'm like 90% sure I have this! I like base my life around food its so embarassing. I will eat a couple cookies in front of DH and then when he goes to bed I will eat until I almost wanna throw up. Im seriously like counting the time unti he comes home because I have a bag of muddy buddies in the trunk. We dont have health insurance for a few more weeks....I think I seriously need to get on some meds.

I agree that you should seek counseling. Good luck!

Just like any other eating disorder meds won't help, therapy will good luck

Therapy! I realized I had food issues when I was taking a class about drug addiction (for my mental health degree) and when our prof listed symptoms of addiction, I fit all of them for food. It was definitely an eye-opening experience. I immediately went to an eating disorder clinic and am so much better for it!

Good luck! If you need any support, I'm only a message away!

Meds won't fix an eating disorder. Therapy can help though.

Quoting ~.:*DKLL*:.~:" Therapy! I realized I had food issues when I was taking a class about drug addiction (for my mental health ... [snip!] ... went to an eating disorder clinic and am so much better for it! Good luck! If you need any support, I'm only a message away!"

I have Bipolar 2 also I went to therapy for that like twice but its so expensive! DH insurance starts in Feb and its like $40 a visit   Im gunna see if I can get some kind of back up insurance to cover some of it. Last time I lost some weight I think I channeled it into being obsessive with eating so little (weighing EVERYTHING and worrying about how many cals I had left for the day). I wasnt absolutely sure I had an eating disorder until I read one of the symptoms is loss of sexual desire!

Quoting DannyPete&MaggieKate's Ma:" I have Bipolar 2 also I went to therapy for that like twice but its so expensive! DH insurance starts ... [snip!] ... left for the day). I wasnt absolutely sure I had an eating disorder until I read one of the symptoms is loss of sexual desire!"

I have been through the same exact thing, you are definitely not alone. When I was 14, I started out what I thought was a "healthy lifestyle change," but quickly turned into an eating disorder. I started by eating healthy and working out 2-3 days a week and became addicted to exercise and eating super healthy/very little.

Over a short period of time my obsession progressed very quickly and I was doing 1-2 hrs of cardio daily and eating VERY little. I got down to about 88 lbs and was hospitalized when I kept fainting. My mom brought me to the dr who diagnosed me with anorexia. Well, after depriving myself for so long, I binge ate one day and told myself I would allow myself to have a cheat day once a week, but after starving my body for so long those binges became more frequent and also ended up happening daily...like literally eat until I wanted to puke, and eventually I did start making myself puke.

I packed on about 40-50 lbs in just 3-4 months and was so depressed but could not stop binging so I would make myself throw up afterwards. Throwing up became like a "high" to me and I fought bulimia for about 5 years after that (I still do fight those demons, it's something that is with you for the rest of your life but you can learn to cope in healthier ways. It is just like a drug/alcohol addiction, you can get sober and be in recovery but you will always be in addict/alcoholic and will always fight those demons; you just learn about your disease and take the appropriate steps to recovery). I know my story might seem a bit dramatic but I would never want to see any one go through what I went through, so if you think you need help please do seek help! If you ever need any one to talk to I'm here