Quoting BrittanyGee:" Hello, I'm Brittany before I begin my story I'd like to ask for no judgement. I stumbled across this ... [snip!] ... I feel very alone and stuck, I'd appreciate anyone's opinion especially if they've been through anything similar, thank you."
My best advice is to leave the boyfriend who clearly doesn't care enough about you. Have had an abortion, I can tell you, especially for a wanted baby, it is heart wrenching. I got pregnant with my son at 18. I went on to be a single mother until earlier this year when I met my now husband. We are now expecting baby #2. I can tell you it's NOT easy, but it is VERY WORTH IT! He is my pride and joy. And the smurf that is his biological father tried to talk me into abortion. It took a long time for me to realize that I am worth more than that... and so are you. I wish you luck in whatever decision you make. Feel free to PM me if you want to talk.