Quoting I Love Dem Baybees!:" I know this thread is dead now but I wanted to shared that I'm feeling similar. I sit around a lot, unfortunately ... [snip!] ... than referee from the couch. I have been ignoring this feeling but I think I'm starting to realize that it is depression ."
I have a neighbor who was self medicating with weed until about 2 weeks ago when he tried slashing his wrists. He just got out of the hospital, but those scars are forever.
He was very up front with the doc about his attempt to self medicate, and straight up told his mom to take his stash because it is NOT good for people with serious depression problems.