I can hardly believe you're 4 today... Time has gone way too fast. I spent a good chunk of last night crying, crying for you and what should have, could have and would have been... There are still days like today and yesterday that I blame myself for not being able to "protect you". I know it was out of my control but I still can't help but to think that it was my fault.
I feel like I'm just supossed to be grateful for your baby sisters and I am, but it doesn't take away the hurt of not having you here to share them with.
I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry that you never got your chance angel. I'd give anything to have you here with us. I miss you, I miss you so much.
I hope your birthday is as amazing in heaven as it would have been here with us on Earth.