Quoting Rabbit™:" Thanks ladies. I really do appreciate the kind words and experiences shared. It is so weird to be going ... [snip!] ... their pregnancies and...god I get so jealous. But on the same note, I feel so blessed to have a second chance to have a family"
You are blessed, sweetie. Someone obviously thinks that you deserve the honor of bringing this child into the world. I am Native American, and believe the Great Spirit has a plan for all of us.
I had trouble accepting this pregnancy in the beginning, I felt like I had failed my other two girls and didn't deserve this one. Grandfather (what we call the Great Spirit) taught me a LOT of HARD lessons this past year (it's been a year and nearly 7 months since I sent my girls away). I did learn to accept this child, and I feel so blessed, and HIGHLY honored that he would choose ME as her mother. It took a lot of meditation and spirit walks for me to learn all that I have learned. I also learned not to hate myself for sending my oldest two away, I know in my heart what I did was best.
I believe that you have learned many hard lessons as well, and are ready to face this world as a new person, a new mother. Don't doubt yourself for one minute.