Quoting Alyssa's mommy [EBFT]:" Thats how I feel, but I stuck it out for a while, leaving to my moms for a bit then coming back hoping ... [snip!] ... I know he felt abandoned but I didn't know what else to do :/ and was extremely hurt that he chose drugs over our child and I."
Yeah I can't even imagine how difficult that must have been! I'm sorry
...maybe he just needs a while to clear his mind and get himself completely together. When he messages you saying things like that, I would ask him why he is saying those things to know and just be honest about how it makes you feel. And maybe even tell him that it isn't fair to be talking to you about that stuff when you know he "doesn't want to be with you" ...I put that in quotes because I'm not convinced that he doesn't want to be with you lol