Eating Disorders (trigger warning)

Who here suffers from eating disorders? What kind of eating disorder? Are you in treatment? How long has this been going on?

I am a binge/purge type bulimic. I have had issues off and on with b/p since I was 15 (I am almost 24 now). I was in treatment but my health insurance wasn't covering enough of it and I couldn't afford to continue therapy. I am currently saving up some money so I can start going again. I have cut down a lot on my purging, but it's been extremely difficult and I still always WANT to purge. It's very hard to overcome the urge, and sometimes I just can't. I have gained a lot of weight recently because of me not purging as much, and that has really caused me to backslide a lot. I feel like Sisyphus rolling the rock up the hill, just no progress no matter what I do. It gets very frustrating at times, and I really don't have anyone to talk to about it.

there is a thread somewhere for that, use the search engine..