Quoting buggials:" ty both for agreeing to disagree lol and for putting a smile on my face I have no clue why but reading ... [snip!] ... a day at a time and see where life takes me not let it get to me and enjoy the toothless drooling grin that awaits me at home."
Thats all you can do, is take it one day at a time
trying to live in the future will only make it so you dont live in the present and will cause anxiety, As Gandhi is famous for saying "Living in the past causes depression. Living in the future causes anxiety. The only thing that matters is this moment. If you do what is right in this moment then the past will not matter and the future will be good. Do not waste time thinking of the past or the future. Do not use up your precious, present moments. Be here now. Harness the power of now and be fully present in each moment."