Quoting Lalasmooch:" No please don't feel bad this is a normal part of PPD. I went through those horrible thoughts as well ... [snip!] ... sweetie because in just a few more days those pills will start kicking in and you'll only go up from there. Lots of love xo"
Thanks. I feel like im about to cry my eyes out right now. I keep thinking of anything and everything I've ever done in my life that could make these fears into truths. Its hard because I keep thinking of things I've done in my life that were wrong. And if I did those things could I do this? It's horrible. I just want to be ok. The drug has my mind so foggy too right now. I think it's throwing me into a panic attack because I'm not used to the drug yet. ugh
I'm sorry. It's just so difficult. It's hard enough having PPD and the thoughts. But then to feel like every bad memory of your past, or past mistakes being called to mind is just so hard. I want to turn my mind off. But I just cant