Quoting AriRyLi:" Tough one... I have only been married for 8 years but we have had our fair share of ups and downs. We ... [snip!] ... of hope, do the extra steps. He will join in. It is hard to be married , but it will unfold into something wonderful"
I've tried to take the extra step! It's just he will be so rude that I can't fake being nice back. I do love him like I said, I love him to death. If we were to get a divorce I know I wouldn't be caught dead with another man for a long time. I have no attraction to any other men but he is just making me feel like I am completely alone in this marriage.
He has a son with his ex. I am very close to her and we get along perfectly well. I love her son as if he were my own but DH spends unlimited time with his son that doesn't compare to his spending time with our little girl. I don't want to sound selfish or rude or insane etc. But seeing as we LIVE together I feel as if he should be spending a great amount of time with our little girl as much as he spends with him.
I spend a lot of time with his son and take him almost everywhere with me when he is over so don't get me wrong when I say he spends a lot of time with him.
Things lately just have not been the same. I'd like to think he isn't cheating on me but in all honesty, there is a great chance he is.
I'm not going to actually divorce him as of now, but I'm saying I DO feel as if I want to do it in the near future if things do not change soon. I just want things to go back to how we were before when we actually spent a ton of time together and he would get home as early as he could unless I was on my job.
I feel like im talking all over the place but that's just how my mind is currently working, all over the place