bad trigger! :( (warning possibly triggering)

agh tonight perhaps wasn't the most appropriate time in my life to watch KILL BILL for the first time... the scene where Uma Thurman wakes up in hospital was SO triggering  

i can hear people thinking "yeah but you CHOSE abortion and it was that bad that you went and did it again :-/ "

but trust me, that is EXACTLY how i felt and how i reacted the day after the first abortion when i woke up in the morning   her acting was amazing scarily realistic to how it feels when your wanted, viable baby is taken out of you by someone else and you gaze at your empty belly  

aaaaaaargh that scene made me cry, i am ok now though had my meds. they will knock me the smurf out soon no doubt!

I haven't seen that film but I have read your posts so I know what you went through. I am sorry you feel this way, I was the same when I had my termination. If you ever want to talk you can PM me. You are not alone  

Quoting Ellie Shikari:" I haven't seen that film but I have read your posts so I know what you went through. I am sorry you feel ... [snip!] ... sorry you feel this way, I was the same when I had my termination. If you ever want to talk you can PM me. You are not alone  "

 

You're a sweet girl, Ellie!

Quoting Ellie Shikari:" I haven't seen that film but I have read your posts so I know what you went through. I am sorry you feel ... [snip!] ... sorry you feel this way, I was the same when I had my termination. If you ever want to talk you can PM me. You are not alone  "

thankyou  

watched the second KILL BILL last night and had the completely opposite reaction  

the scenes where she was with her daughter at the end and she was cuddling her and tenderly tucking her in and stuff, reminded me of myself and my own daughter <3
B.B. reminded me a bit of her too she's just a couple of years younger than my daughter and the way she acted and attitude like sort of curious, beyond her years and relaxed about grown-up stuff that;s what my girl is like! ♥
so it reminded me what i DO have, whereas last night reminded me what i've lost (or given up   )

i felt happy and that nice swelly-heart feeling, so that was nice  

She got in to bed with us today and we snuggled up together before going downstairs to get our breakfasts ♥

That is good to hear   yes, think of what you do have!