Quoting ::1st:: Time Mommy:" Last night i was contemplating having my induction sooner. (I am 41 weeks and 4? days) I saw my dr about ... [snip!] ... up? What if I'm not a good enough mom in his eyes? Did anyone else feel like this when they got close to having their first?"
I had to quit school and the life that I had for my son. I worried constantly, and one of the things I honestly worried about was not loving my son like most moms do. I did not want to resent my child, but I hated being pregnant with a passion. I thought I was going to mess everything up, that I would not be good enough, or mess up and something bad happen to him. After I had him, he became my world and I loved him like I never knew I could love. One thing that someone pointed out to me.. "The fact that you are actually worried about not being a good mom, raising your child wrong or being a disappointment, just proves that you are going to be a good mom." No matter what you tell your child about his father, no matter the times you might mess up, as long as you love your child and do the best you possibly can to raise him, it will be ok. Along the way we all make mistakes and as long as your child is safe, happy and healthy, that's all that matters. There will be times where you are the bad guy, but your child will still look up to you, and you will be the one they go to when something is wrong. You will beat yourself up over small things that wont matter to your child. And honestly people will tell you it will be ok and that you can do it, you are still going to stress and freak out about it. But you will love every moment you have once your lil man arrives.