please help..advice?

we fight all the time, we irritate eachother like no other and we never see eachother because he works ALL the time. SO works 5pm-2or3am almost every day...he goes to work, comes hom(im already asleep) he doesnt go to sleep until 4or5am then sleeps all day until about 3pm then takes a shower and gets ready to leave for work at 4:30. we dont really have sex, we dont communicate, we dont have time to even sit down with eachother. BUT it has pretty much been this way for the whole length of our relationship. my relationship is falling apart.

my on again, off again boyfriend, my first love...i still love him, wants to get back with me and i (to a point) want to get back with him. we were on and off for 9 years. then i got with my SO that im with now and i got pregnant.

i wish i knew how to exactly put this. but i dont. i miss my ex, and i still love him, and no matter what i do, its always him at the end of the day. i know for a fact i would be happy with him. right now, in this relationship about 75% of my relationship is arguing and fighting..everyone tells me to make myslef happy for me and my baby...but noone knows my boyfriend like i do, and if i leave him he would take me to court and try to take her from me. i have no place to go, no car, and no job if i leave him, he has made me totally dependent of him...
i dont know which decision to make, im totally confused.

this sucks.

I honestly never got the point of an on and off relationship, and if it didn't change for nine years I don't see it changing now and that is not a healthy relationship for a child to be in between of. Have you told your SO how you feel?

I can relate to your relationship. I know how you're feeling but I just feel like your ex is your ex for a reason. You didn't work in the past so what makes it different now. The only reason you feel like that in your current relationship is because you don't feel wanted and you guys haven't talked and tried to make it better. My advice is to sit down communicate and try your hardest to make it better.

the on again off again, was completely because we werent ready, or i moved out of state, or he moved..but we both ended up back here..lol.
i know for a fact that if we got together it would work only because we both want it to. he is ready and willing to accept that im a package deal.

and no i havent talked to my SO about how i feel because he has a short fuse 

This may sound crazy, but why don't you try getting up 2 or 3 times a week when he gets home from work and spending two hours with him? If you want to make something work you will try pretty much anything, you won't find excuses not to. Being a parent is a huge deal and I highly doubt that your ex knows what he would be signing up for if you were to get back with him. Give your SO a chance, talk to him, even if you think he will get angry.

how can i do that when im the only one who mainly gets up in the middle of the night, the main one who takes care of her period! i get BARELY ANY SLEEP.....i dont know what to do...this sucks...

Does he have a day off? Take him out on a date an tell him then you have something to talk to him about when you two get home.

Quoting Heeeeeey, Sexy lady. ;):" Does he have a day off? Take him out on a date an tell him then you have something to talk to him about when you two get home."

we tried this....it doesnt make anything better...lol..i wish it did 

Sometimes that's just how it is...my relationship with my husband has it's sucky points too, but we sit down, talk about it and everything works out. We don't always like what is said but we listen and try to figure something that works for both of us. When it comes to relationships my Grandfather always said "relationships aren't 50-50, they should be 100-100, you need to throw yourself in completely or not at all" I've always taken that to heart. Hope you figure things out.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Kyleigh'sMommy12:</b>" we tried this....it doesnt make anything better...lol..i wish it did  "</blockquote>

So you've talked to him about it? If you have and it doesn't work then yes you should just leave but don't engage yourself in another relationship so fast.

Quoting Heeeeeey, Sexy lady. ;):" <blockquote><b>Quoting Kyleigh'sMommy12:</b>" we tried this....it doesnt make anything ... [snip!] ... it? If you have and it doesn't work then yes you should just leave but don't engage yourself in another relationship so fast."

what do i do with no place to go, no job, and no car

Get a job first of all. Go to your parents? A friend? A family member? A shelter? Church? Apply for food stamps & housing?

Quoting Heeeeeey, Sexy lady. ;):" Get a job first of all. Go to your parents? A friend? A family member? A shelter? Church? Apply for food stamps & housing?"

friends my age..yeah right....and my family and i arent on speaking terms.
i dont know of any shelters
and i recieve food stamps now..but the housing my bf will not take me to go sign up on...he thinks its a waste of time because of all the places they are located

i know it sounds like im makling excuses, but i swear im not. this is my life, forreal. no ifs ands or buts....and it kinda hard 

Quoting Kyleigh'sMommy12:" friends my age..yeah right....and my family and i arent on speaking terms. i dont know of any shelters ... [snip!] ... the housing my bf will not take me to go sign up on...he thinks its a waste of time because of all the places they are located"

Can you take your self in a taxi or metro?