Goodbye my sweet angel.

I was expecting, due May 17th. I went today to take a 'sneak peek' at my little one and come to find out he was a little boy even thought I was hoping for girl. But this was the least of my worries.......my sweet angel has gone. I was devastated and I cant even remember anything that went on for the 30 min ultrasound. Everything is such a blur......I had to be carried out and in to the car. I am at complete loss and complete sadness. I dont know what I did wrong or why my baby should have this happen to him. I have my D&E in the morning...........I will probaby go in to hiding after this message for a little while.

Amine will name him sometime tomorrow and I plan to get a tattoo in his memory.
**EDIT**
His name is Malik....we will not do a middle name....we will just call him Malik which means King in Arabic.

Thanks to all the girls for my pink dust and excitement for my 3rd baby.....My little guy will be in a better place.   

I'm so sorry for your loss. I just had my D&C a few days ago after mc'ing at 11 weeks. I am so sorry and i hope you find comfort. I'm here if you ever need to talk. *hugs*

So sorry to hear  

I'm So sorry sweetie   *hugs*
how many weeks is that?

Quoting lolajessup:" I'm So sorry sweetie   *hugs* how many weeks is that?"

looks like 17  

So sorry for your loss *hugs*

Quoting *Vani*:" I was expecting, due May 17th. I went today to take a 'sneak peek' at my little one and come to find ... [snip!] ... Thanks to all the girls for my pink dust and excitement for my 3rd baby.....My little guy will be in a better place.   "

Sweetie, I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to, considering we were due date buddies, but if you need me you know where I am. I love you and I hope heal and rest well from your procedure tomorrow. If you need absolutely anything, contact me! (big big hugs)

oh im so sorry   did they say what they think may have caused this to happen?

I am so sorry for your loss.  
I hope you have all the support you need during your healing process.

Quoting *Vani*:" I was expecting, due May 17th. I went today to take a 'sneak peek' at my little one and come to find ... [snip!] ... Thanks to all the girls for my pink dust and excitement for my 3rd baby.....My little guy will be in a better place.   "

Im sorry, love.  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Jenna&Charlotte:</b>" looks like 17  "</blockquote>

Oh how awful. I really am sorry mama  

I am soooo sorry for your loss.   *hugs*

So very sorry for your loss. Just know that it is in no way your fault, and please don't blame yourself <3

Quoting Devil Duckie:" Sweetie, I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to, considering we were due date buddies, ... [snip!] ... you and I hope heal and rest well from your procedure tomorrow. If you need absolutely anything, contact me! (big big hugs) "

Ohhh no never, I would never feel that way. I will be exited to watch you continue on!! My best friend is having a baby girl and I will be spoiling her very very much....
I am sad but I will be ok, I just never thought something like this will happen to me.

And I asked what could have happen and they had no answer for me, I did 2 diferent level u/s and they said that anything could have happened...but it was just in the last couple days.

Quoting *Vani*:" Ohhh no never, I would never feel that way. I will be exited to watch you continue on!! My best friend ... [snip!] ... for me, I did 2 diferent level u/s and they said that anything could have happened...but it was just in the last couple days."

oh, good. I didn't want things to be weird or awkward between us.
will they do genetic testing?