Feeling like a bad girlfriend.

Pretty much it's been almost 4 months since I had my baby girl and my SO and I have only had sex 3 times.
I never have an urge too, don't feel comfortable to leave my daughter in another room and definitely don't want her in the same room.

I never make him dinner or lunch and he works all night.
I spend his money and then feel like smurf afterwards because my job doesn't pay me enough to afford anything.
He gets mad about it too when I ask.
I always end up needing something. I feel like smurf afterwards.

Anyways I'm really feeling down on myself. And even though a of these are fixable I for some reason have no energy to fix it...

 
I know I'm depressed but I'm a little unsure if that's the problem...

I feel like I'm going to lose him soon..

have you talk to your doctor about PPD?

I never wanted sex till 8 months pp. the money thing I don't know about since we combined our money and so none of it is his or mine it's ours.

<blockquote><b>Quoting |♥| Jayme |♥|:</b>" have you talk to your doctor about PPD?"</blockquote>




I don't have a doctor anymore. I don't have any insurance  

<blockquote><b>Quoting kate & tilly:</b>" I never wanted sex till 8 months pp. the money thing I don't know about since we combined our money and so none of it is his or mine it's ours."</blockquote>




We have combined ours as well. But he still gets mad, I still have to ask for everything. It's almost like we aren't sharing it because he gets so annoyed everytime.

I hope it doesn't take 8 months for me t want too because he really seems unhappy these days and I don't blame him.

Quoting Daniee:" <blockquote><b>Quoting |♥| Jayme |♥|:</b>" have you talk to your doctor about PPD?"</blockquote> I don't have a doctor anymore. I don't have any insurance  "

well i would talk to someone about it because depression is hard to deal with especially if you don't talk to a doctor about and find out things that can help you

<blockquote><b>Quoting |♥| Jayme |♥|:</b>" well i would talk to someone about it because depression is hard to deal with especially if you don't talk to a doctor about and find out things that can help you"</blockquote>




I was diagnosed with PTSD when I was 16. So I know I already have depression.
I'm not sure it's post partem though or maybe it's intensified and is both.
I hope I can figure it all out.
I'm happy with m daughter though. I have no problems with feelings for her. I love her more than anything she's my baby girl (:
So if I have post partem it's definitely not that kind.

Quoting Daniee:" <blockquote><b>Quoting |♥| Jayme |♥|:</b>" well i would talk to someone ... [snip!] ... feelings for her. I love her more than anything she's my baby girl (: So if I have post partem it's definitely not that kind."

oh damn does your SO know how you feel?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Daniee:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting kate & tilly:</b>" I never wanted sex till 8 months pp. the ... [snip!] ... I hope it doesn't take 8 months for me t want too because he really seems unhappy these days and I don't blame him."</blockquote>




My husband was a little annoyed in the beginning till I pointed out I was the one making the most money. I don't anymore but his attitude has been in check since. Talk to someone about depression. Are you in school or do you go to church? Often time priests or what not are willing to talk to you for free. If your in school try the campus health center they usually have someone. Or a really caring smart girlfriend?

<blockquote><b>Quoting |♥| Jayme |♥|:</b>" oh damn does your SO know how you feel?"</blockquote>




Yeah, he knows I'm depressed. I think that's why he puts up with my mood swings.
I get annoyed easily with him. Which makes me feel like crap too.

Quoting Daniee:" <blockquote><b>Quoting |♥| Jayme |♥|:</b>" oh damn does your SO know how ... [snip!] ... depressed. I think that's why he puts up with my mood swings. I get annoyed easily with him. Which makes me feel like crap too."

have you thought about sitting down and writing out how you feel it might help?

<blockquote><b>Quoting kate & tilly:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Daniee:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting kate & tilly:</b>" ... [snip!] ... to you for free. If your in school try the campus health center they usually have someone. Or a really caring smart girlfriend?"</blockquote>




Ha, I wish I had a job that paid more or equivalent but he makes $26 an hour so that's not going to happen lol.
At least anytime soon. Then he would be nicer about money.

I only have my mom to talk too.
I don't have many friends since I was 14. Haven't been a huge people person thats when I was in an abusive relationship until I was 16. That's when I was diagnosed with the PTSD. Since I've only had one close friend. And she's been so up we boyfriends ass she never talks to me anymore.

<blockquote><b>Quoting |♥| Jayme |♥|:</b>" have you thought about sitting down and writing out how you feel it might help?"</blockquote>




I haven't wrote in a long time. I love writing... I use to listen to music loud and write. But I haven't done that.
Maybe I will try.

Quoting Daniee:" <blockquote><b>Quoting |♥| Jayme |♥|:</b>" have you thought about sitting ... [snip!] ... wrote in a long time. I love writing... I use to listen to music loud and write. But I haven't done that. Maybe I will try."

you should i know when i do it it helps me a lot i like to draw and write and also listen to music when i am feeling depressed

if he makes 26 an hour and makes you beg or gets annoyed yeah i wouldnt be in that relationship for long i can tell you that! maybe tell him when he quits treating you like a dirty beggar he will get some