I know I posted couple days ago how I was so happy and had it together even with out BD around which was fantastic. Well today ty facebook for offering up his new gf he's been lying about for me to friend...and ty to her for having pics of them on days he "was working" public it hurts not because he isn't with me or single but because he lies to avoid seeing his daughter...it bothers me because he constantly tries to get in my pants and here he has a gf behind the scenes and is taking trips apparently to see her family in other states. I haven't had time to grieve our engagement I was pregnant in school and I guess it hit me now whats really going on...that while I sit here supporting our daughter and being there for her trying to keep lines open etc he's running to Maine taking her out and doing things we never did because he was to tired or poor. I always hear now he can't help with the baby because he is broke can't afford gas etc. He's always working at his pt job and I'm sitting looking at our gorgeous daughter who looks so much like him wanting to cry bc she is getting screwed one day I will have to explain it all I know it is far away but it sucks
so after all the drama yesterday and what seemed like a million emails he officially decided he didn't want to be involved and that his new gf, traveling and partying are more important then his daughter. So after I go Friday and pick up some stuff he has he doesn't want that ppl bought him for her he said we are done talking unless he decides one day he wants to see her which I'm doubting will happen. I guess part of me just doesn't get how somebody can walk away from a child like that. We both wanted a baby and now he doesn't I am so anxious for Friday I really want all this to be over with so I can relax and enjoy my daughter more without worrying about him anymore. Yes I think he is moving with his new gf out of state if I find that out I swear I'm going to dance in the street.