re: Need help wrapping my mind around this

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting ℐ+ℳ=£:</b>" Hmm I might try and look that up.. ... [snip!] ... Yeah I try to tell myself it could've happened in any preg. I just looked it up. It only occurs in 1:2500 births."

It's unlucky you got it, but lucky they found it   Try not to worry mama! The doctors will be there to make sure everything goes smoothly  

I don't have much time online right now, so I can't read the comments. but I hope the best for you and the baby. I'm sure everything will fall into place. just take it as easy as you can mama.

<blockquote><b>Quoting CourtyyBugg:</b>" I don't have much time online right now, so I can't read the comments. but I hope the best for you and the baby. I'm sure everything will fall into place. just take it as easy as you can mama."</blockquote>

Thanks sweetie  

Gah I'm so sick of crying and living in constant fear. Every pain I get I'm convinced it's contractions and every discharge I have I'm convinced it's my water leaking. I just don't think I can do this another month before getting hospitalized  

I'm stupid and I keep reading people's stories good and bad. I was hoping it would help ease my mind ad make me more aware of the warning signs but I think it's just scaring me more  

Being scared is totally normal under the circumstances. You just have to do the best you can to get through it. One day at a time and all of that. My pregnancies were never really ideal (extreme understatement). I do remember being bitter about it in the beginning and terrified.

During my second pregnancy, I saw a shrink to help me deal with losing my first baby and dealing with the anxiety of a second high risk pregnancy. I don't know how much help he was though. I think the only thing that made it better was having him born. I just put my anxiety on hold as much as i could until after he was born. It took me a couple of months to relax though. I think what helped me the most was finding a support group online with other moms who were dealing with the same stuff i was.

Once your baby is here though and safely in your arms, all of this stuff fades. Only one of my babies ended up in the NICU for any length of time. My youngest had issues. I have an incompetent cervix and I'm type 1 diabetic. I dilated 2 to 3 cm's at 12 weeks (which they think now was earlier than that.. maybe 11 weeks). I had placenta previa during that time too right before surgery. I was very very lucky and didn't have any bleeding, but they wouldn't let me move for a few weeks. Dh was terrified to let me out of his sight. Then my water broke early (35 to 36 weeks) and no one caught what was going on for a bit. That led to a very dramatic failed induction and an emergency c-section with a funky incision site. He ended up on oxygen support and IV antibiotics for 4 days in the NICU. After he was off the bubble cpap (sounds like an aquarium.. pretty cool), i was able to nurse while he was in there. They paged my room every 2 hours and I was wheeled down to try feeding him.

I think you just need to go easy on yourself. You're doing the best you can in a tough situation. Stress isn't going to hurt anything and it's totally normal for high risk pregnancies. You have good dr's watching you and they will do their best for you and your baby. Hang in there!

<blockquote><b>Quoting Summerfrost:</b>" Being scared is totally normal under the circumstances. You just have to do the best you can to get through ... [snip!] ... for high risk pregnancies. You have good dr's watching you and they will do their best for you and your baby. Hang in there!"</blockquote>


Thank you. Id almost rather be in the hospital
Now so if skmething happens they can get her out fast. If something happens at home she's dead   I'm just a wreck. I thought about calling the dr to see if they knew of any support groups. I'm so scared to go back to work. I don't wanna move at all. I just wanna lay as still as I can on the couch.

I know I'm late to the conversation, but I had my son at 35 weeks and he was healthy enough that they did not even need the NICU team for anything. I know a Csection isn't what you wanted, and that you are scared, (I would be too I'm sure) but just know that it's not necessarily gonna be a bad outcome or the baby be unhealthy or Nicu'd. Everything could turn out great!

<blockquote><b>Quoting lauren [+2] TTC#3:</b>" I know I'm late to the conversation, but I had my son at 35 weeks and he was healthy enough that they ... [snip!] ... just know that it's not necessarily gonna be a bad outcome or the baby be unhealthy or Nicu'd. Everything could turn out great!"</blockquote>

Thanks mama. Yeah I'm less worried about nicu as I am about her dying from my water breaking. I'm in constant fear of going into labor right now.

It's like other people just have to worry about havin a preemie if they were to go into labor at this point, but I don't even get a chance, she'd be dead immediately. So I'm just petrified.

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting lauren [+2] TTC#3:</b>" I know I'm late to the conversation, ... [snip!] ... if they were to go into labor at this point, but I don't even get a chance, she'd be dead immediately. So I'm just petrified."

What exactly was vasa previa? Her umbillical vessel being over your cervix?

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Summerfrost:</b>" Being scared is totally normal under the circumstances. ... [snip!] ... support groups. I'm so scared to go back to work. I don't wanna move at all. I just wanna lay as still as I can on the couch."

Most dr's are pretty good at working with people about that sort of thing. I'm sure she could at least give you a note for reduced work hours or ask to be put on bedrest as a precaution. Chances are she/he's trying to let you work because they think you want to keep working.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Summerfrost:</b>" Most dr's are pretty good at working with people about that sort of thing. I'm sure she could at least ... [snip!] ... to be put on bedrest as a precaution. Chances are she/he's trying to let you work because they think you want to keep working. "</blockquote>
I kind of have to work. It's gonna financially kill us that I'm
Off 2 mos early. He said if I wanted to he'd put me on bed rest but he understood of I needed to put food on te table. I banked out all my sick and vaycay time during this bed rest. I don't get more until jan 1   but I have a great work team so they'll def make me take it easy. They call me everyday to make sure I'm follow my bed rest cause I'm kind of an overdoer. I'm afraid I won't be able to stop myself from
Overdoing it  

<blockquote><b>Quoting lauren [+2] TTC#3:</b>" What exactly was vasa previa? Her umbillical vessel being over your cervix?"</blockquote>


Yeah it's attached by my cervix so if I dilate or my water break she bleeds out in a matter of mins. Even being in the hospital if that happened shed probably have severe brain damage and still could die. But beig at home theres no chance of her making it. At least in the hospital they can no itor my cervix more closely and if I'm having contractions. I'm so terrified that I'll have contractions and not know it.

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Summerfrost:</b>" Most dr's are pretty good at working with ... [snip!] ... make sure I'm follow my bed rest cause I'm kind of an overdoer. I'm afraid I won't be able to stop myself from Overdoing it  "

Could you do something like work a couple of days a week instead of the whole week? This is probably where our situation is different. In each of my pregnancies, I ended up getting taken out of work except the last one where I didn't even try to work. Good thing too since I started having issues so early last pregnancy. The lesson I learned the hard way is that no matter how important I thought my obligations were, none of it mattered if I could avoid hospital bedrest and possible issues with the baby. The guilt is pretty intense when something goes wrong. I mean it's been almost 6 years and I still question some of the decisions I made with my first pregnancy.

As a result though, we do have a healthy supply of hospital bills that will probably take us another couple of years to pay off completely. Insurance only covers so much and I have very expensive pregnancies. It means we gave up things like vacation in the summer time and other stuff like that. IMO, totally worth it though.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Summerfrost:</b>" Could you do something like work a couple of days a week instead of the whole week? This is probably ... [snip!] ... It means we gave up things like vacation in the summer time and other stuff like that. IMO, totally worth it though. "</blockquote>
Yeah I only have kids at work 4 days a week. And I have a lot of appts coming up so I'll be working probably 7 hours 4 days a week. And maybe some prep stuff on Fridays. So I'll definitely not be working all of my allotted hours. It just sucks financially. But yeah I know none of it matters in the long run. I may screw up this job because we're supposed to be switched to a new agency as staff sometime soon and I might not be there to dothat. So who knows I might lose my job. And idk if they're gonna expect me to come back after 6-12 weeks but I'm sorry my preemie infant will NOT be going to daycare. It's where I work but there's always some random disease or illness going around and I'm
Not willing to risk it with her