We laid my Poppy to rest today

And its the hardest thing Ive ever done. I thought I had knew pain...I was so wrong. I just cant wrap my mind around this. How is it possible that the strongest man Ive ever known or will know is gone? I saw his body last night at the viewing...so cold and not like him. You would think that would make me realize but it hasnt. I hurt and Im sad but its in my head that if I say I miss him enough, beg and plead enough or go to my moms house he will come back to me. I even get that he was 90 years old and lived a very long, healthy, loved life. I just cant believe hes gone. I just....feel so damn lost. I miss him

This was him and my baby, I had his picture put in his hands.

So sorry for you loss, mama 

i am so sorry for your loss. i had lost my grandma to cancer last year and i felt the same exact way. she was one of the strongest women in my life. i hope things get for you soon enough, take care.

So sorry

I'm sorry hunni,grandparents are so precious i have an idea of how you're feeling. I lost my grandma last year. You will be in my thoughts.  

Thank you all! I just wish loosing someone didnt have to hurt so much. I know it hurts because I loved him but I just wish it didnt have to be so bad.

I'm so sorry..  

The only I could do when my grandma passed was reassure myself she wasn't in pain anymore.

She suffered terribly in the years before she passed. Even went through treatments to extend her life because she thought it's what we wanted before she gave up. It was so hard. But for me knowing she wasn't in pain anymore made it so much better.

I'm so sorry for you...it will get better in time!