So we decided....

Not to ttc anytime soon. We had the dreaded talk. We have been casually in limbo on when we want to ttc. Mostly because the decision was on me. I have alot of loose ends to tie up. College has always been a huge goal for me. If I decided anytime soon to have another baby I would have a newborn and a toddler and not have crap worth of college done. Upon completion of my chemical dependence degree, I will only be a CASAC in training and will still have to pass the writen portion of the test from NYS. I will then have to bust my ass making it for myself because all the CASAC jobs I have peaked at ask for 1 years experience as a CASAC...Its all alot of hoops to jump through.
I also am at least 60 or more lbs overweight and would really love to get in a healthy place. I smoke too much too. I would LOVE to quit smoking.
SO graduates in may and that gets him a much better paying job but thats if he can find a job. That part scares me the most. Having another baby without any semblance of financial security.
I feel kinda sad, honestly. We hadnt officially decided. Like I said we were in limbo, like one month we were drooling over newborn baby clothes and our sons newborn pictures, and the next we wouldnt even have sex much just to be on the safe side. Boo.   How do I get over the baby fever...we are talking going year by year...not month by month. It overwhelms me, though I know we are making the right decision. I know its something we can readdress again if we change our mind but yeah..sigh.

I know how you feel i just lost my baby in september and i desperately wanna try again but i need to lose weight from having her and also my husband is getting out of the military soon so we have to move and be financially stable before we can...it sucks its all i think about.

<blockquote><b>Quoting my angel savannah:</b>" I know how you feel i just lost my baby in september and i desperately wanna try again but i need to ... [snip!] ... getting out of the military soon so we have to move and be financially stable before we can...it sucks its all i think about."</blockquote>




Im sorry! I guess it's good we try to better ourselves? My sons god mother managed to get up to a 26 from back to back to back pregnancies without trying to lose the weight. Almost 20 years has gone by and she is a 20 now. i just dont want to struggle with weight more than i am now and being overweight has me miserable. I'm between and 18 and a 20. I vowed I wouldn't be a 20 (I'm 5' every lb shows. An 18 on me looks bigger)