how did you manage?

im due january 11th, which isn't very long from now. the faster it approaches, the more anxious & excited but afraid i get about the big day. the first part of my question is, what did you do to help cope with this wierd mix of emotions? at times i feel like i have confidence that the female body knows what to do by now especially since we're been doing it since the beginning of time, but at the same time i can't help shake the feeling something will go wrong. keep in mind i don't absolutely hate needles but i do not want an epidural, give in for one, nor have a c- section. what helped you cope or find confidence to do what you did when you felt like this (if you ever did)?

I freaked out until the moment i was in labor. Then I was just kinda like ok well I gotta do this now. I did end up with an epi because of how fast i progressed and how fast she dropped but all my fears just kinda left when the moment came.