i wonder.**kind of a vent ...**

as the last month of this year arrives and i sit on the bed in the room i shared with BD looking at our daughter and think about the fact that this time last year he was asleep next to me as i fed our nearly newborn in this same bed (his bed from before us being together) ..,,if he even thinks of her ever.. if as the holidays approch us if he wishes he could see how big shes gotten and how smart and sweet she is if he wounders what her voice sounds like ..if he wonders what she thinks of the lights outside her house or how shell react to the tree and the presents i wonder if he thinks about the fact that he wont get to see her get get present on chirstmas morning or kiss her as the clock strikes 12 on new years eve ..idk ....personally i DONT miss him and she doesnt even know who he is and she has a daddy who ADORES her who says good night everyday and gives her kisses and who cant wait for chirstmas with her ..but as a parent i cant imagine NOT being there thru these times ..i wonder if he knows what hes missing ...

This makes me sad :/ I almost started tearing up. I felt this way also. My sons father didn't start seeing him regularly until this August and my son is two. It sucks but at least she does have someone else there for her. I just can't comprehend how men and sometimes women think it's okay not to be in their Childs lives.

Truth is he probably doesn't really think about anyone but himself. Anyone who could leave their child is not a parent.. and only a parent would think about their child the way you described.. IMO.

Quoting Once Upon A Time♥:" This makes me sad :/ I almost started tearing up. I felt this way also. My sons father didn't start seeing ... [snip!] ... else there for her. I just can't comprehend how men and sometimes women think it's okay not to be in their Childs lives."

i hate it cuz i was too when i wrote it and im happy with out him in our lives hes not the best person but like dame i just dont get it if hed at least TRIED to see her or called or SOMETHING shes SUCH an amazing little girl and tho she does have someone who i ADORE and so does she ...thats his daughter ..i just dont get it ..its such a weird feeling ..

Quoting K&T:" Truth is he probably doesn't really think about anyone but himself. Anyone who could leave their child is not a parent.. and only a parent would think about their child the way you described.. IMO. "

you're right ... im pretty sure he doesnt hes too busy doing coke drinking smoking god knows what and playing house wsith his girlfriend who pays their rent and im sure everything else since accorinding to him he has no job or car ..

This made me want to cry. My oldest's sperm donor left me when I got pregnant and hasn't talked to me despite my efforts. She's almost 3. My fiancé has raised her from infancy and is adopting her, and because they look so much alike and I've never dealt with sperm donor I've never thought it any other way.

But I have wondered if he's ever curious. And it's sad. I would, however, NEVER call him "baby daddy" lol. He's a sperm donor. A worthless twat waffle sperm donor who hates me & the child he made over 3 years ago. Piss, now I'm butthurt.

Quoting Baby Love.:" This made me want to cry. My oldest's sperm donor left me when I got pregnant and hasn't talked to me ... [snip!] ... a sperm donor. A worthless twat waffle sperm donor who hates me & the child he made over 3 years ago. Piss, now I'm butthurt."

lol well i left him when she 4-5 months shes 14 months now and yea thats what i usually call him but for the sake of this vent i said bd lol ..and lucky for me my bf LOVES my daughter too tho he cant adopt her (when/if we get married) cuz i was dumb enough to put him on the BC and give her his last name  (

<blockquote><b>Quoting Kalie Nicole's Mommy:</b>" lol well i left him when she 4-5 months shes 14 months now and yea thats what i usually call him but ... [snip!] ... too tho he cant adopt her (when/if we get married) cuz i was dumb enough to put him on the BC and give her his last name  ("</blockquote>


That sucks   It's frustrating. I haven't seen him in 4 years, and there's no need to. Emma will never know another man... Justin has raised her and always will. :-) along with our other babes.

Quoting Baby Love.:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Kalie Nicole's Mommy:</b>" lol well i left him when she 4-5 ... [snip!] ... there's no need to. Emma will never know another man... Justin has raised her and always will. :-) along with our other babes."

yea kalie calls my bf dada she LOVES him and usually rather even go with him then anyone else ...even me lol ...but since we dont live toghter its still comes to mind yknow but she doesnt know who he SP is shes only seen him like twice since feb. and if its up to me she wont see him anymore but well see if he ever bothers to try to get some kind of custody which even if he does i have enough to not only not let him get it but land his ass in jail ... i just wonder if he thinks about her since he was there thru the whole pregnancy and the first 4-5 months of her life .... i mean we were engaged and living togheter he has my engagement ring and a bunch of her stuff he never gave back so idk i just wonder sometimes ..but hes probably too high or drunk with his gf to even think about her