grieving a second miscarriage

I feel like I am grieving less this time around than I did after my first miscarriage, has anyone else experienced this? I think its because with my first I was naive and assumed that pregnancy=healthy baby. end of story. Miscarriage couldnt possibly happen to me! I was so shocked and devastated when I mc'd. This pregnancy, I was hesitant to get attached until I was further along and my worst fears were confirmed   I wonder if this time I am less devastated because deep down I was preparing myself for the worst all along. But I also wonder if I am just repressing my feelings and I am going to break down one day here soon.   (Edit: this is what I worry is really happening.) Has anyone else been through anything like this?

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Oh honey   I am soo sorry. My heart breaks for you.

I'm sorry hun. I hope it gets easier for you. :'(

Yes for each one I became more... Numb?... To it.
I had 3MCs(no known reason) and then I had my LO in August of this year.

I was not attached to my daughter when I was pregnant with her. At all. We didn't even start to bond until she was born. I recently had a miscarriage, and while I am sad that it wasn't viable, because DH and I are ttc, I wasn't overly upset. I have an appt tomorrow, actually, to make sure everything was passed.

Quoting Yurvette [♥]:" Oh honey   I am soo sorry. My heart breaks for you. "

Thanks hun. Its so frustrating. Like I always assumed 2 lines = baby 9 months later. Now for me it seems like all 2 lines gets me is 1-2 more weeks of pregnancy   Its not fair but then again no one said life would smurfing be  

First of all, I'm so sorry for your loss <3. For my first pregnancy, I was like you, naive, miscarriage didn't even cross my mind.. I was heartbroken I miscarried at 9 weeks. With my second I was really kind of numb and distant, waiting for the first 3 months to go by, the night before I started bleeding I knew I was losing the baby.. I don't know why I just felt terrible and I told SO I was going to lose it and the next morning I did. With DD's pregnancy I was almost resentful.. even though we were trying (I know its weird) when I started feeling nauseous I was like 'ugh why go through all this to just miscarry in the end' ..I was lucky they let me have an ultrasound at 6 weeks and found a strong heartbeat and I had a healthy, successful pregnancy. When its meant to be it will happen, be strong <3

Quoting Adriana's Mami♥:" First of all, I'm so sorry for your loss <3. For my first pregnancy, I was like you, naive, miscarriage ... [snip!] ... and found a strong heartbeat and I had a healthy, successful pregnancy. When its meant to be it will happen, be strong <3"

Thank you hun. Im sorry for your losses. I was hoping this time that feeling ms was a good sign but its just not the time yet  

im sorry for your loss   

I feel almost exactly the same way. With my first miscarriage,I wasn't very concerned. I was 17 and glad not to be pregnant with my abuser's baby. With my second miscarriage, 5 years later, I was devastated for over a week. I could barely drag myself out of bed to take care of my two living children. Now, having just started the process of the third miscarriage, I feel as though I'm grieving much less than my last. I took 24 hours after the bleeding and pain started, and went into a near catatonic state, but when that was done, and I had to go back to reality, it stopped. I had my day to grieve and I feel like that's really all I need ( other than for the pain to stop at least. ) I felt like a horrible mother to not be grieving the way I had with my last miscarriage, but at least I know I'm not alone.

I'm so sorry for your losses  
My first loss, I lost myself when the dr did an internal and said my membranes were bulging. The nurse tried to reassure but the drs words and tone of voice did it and I was a mess. I grieved so hard over him.
My second I still remained hopeful over his faint heartbeat, my water were gone and dr felt his feet but for some reason it didn't feel like it was sinking quite in like it had with my first. The dr and nurses were saying how sorry they were and I knew. I didn't ever grieve over him or even cry as hard as I did the first though and I was also scared I was bottling it up and would explode eventually. I did have break downs but not like I expected.
It still hurts but I guess we just accept it or go numb?
Big hugs, I'm so sorry