How can I compose myself?

My LO is starting school on Thursday. I had been looking into affordable preschools for him, and my old school called me out of the blue and offered him a full scholarship. Which is amazing. I could never afford it otherwise.

So now that he's finally starting, it's setting in. It probably sounds stupid but I already want to cry thinking about it. I've been blessed being able to be with him every day during the day and work nights.
I'm not used to being without him for such long periods of time. It's just the two of us, his dad is not involved and I have no other kids. Just me and him and I know I'm going to miss him so much. I don't want to start blubbering hysterically when I drop him off because that will upset him. Should I take a Xanax? LOL. Sing songs to myself? I'm such a baby.

Quoting A&J. ♥:" My LO is starting school on Thursday. I had been looking into affordable preschools for him, and my old ... [snip!] ... when I drop him off because that will upset him. Should I take a Xanax? LOL. Sing songs to myself? I'm such a baby."

LOL! I cried...but not until I was walking out the door.

the first few times cameron went to daycare i cried as soon as i got in the car lol