So sad

I Have a fiancé I have been with for 8 years and have been so careful with birth control since we started seeing each other. We live together in a small apartment with our puppy. we were planning on starting a family in another year. Well I wasn't feeling well the middle of October and even though I wasn't late i had a feeling so I took a test. Well it was positive and I had a massive panic attack and major anxiety. We talked and I went to my on to get a blood test. I cried the whole time because we are still in major debt from college and credit cards and will have them paid off Ina year which is why we wanted to wait. We decided mutually to have the procedure done but I had to wait a week. That entire week I had panic attacks and anxiety all day every day and lost about 15 pounds I couldn't eat or drink hardly anything. I felt horrible and was trying to figure out how it all happened. I was suicidal and couldn't drive myself to work for almost 3 days. So the day of the procedure came and I had yet another panic attack because I thought I would die from the anestsiha I have a fear of being put to sleep.
Well I survived the procedure and went for my follow up. The dr said everything was fine however the sample they took out was small and might have miscarried anyways but they did an ultrasound and didn't see anything. And my preg test was negative. I felt relief that day and was actually able to eat that night. This was 3 weeks ago.
In the last two weeks I am slowly adjusting to things and will be fine most of the day but then I see a post on Facebook of friends who are pregnant and get sad or I'll just be sitting there and start crying or have a panic attack. I find my self blaming my finance even though it was a joint decision. I went to my dr today and he suggested anti depreesents for anxiety and the panic attacks. I filled them but a debating on taking them to see if its just my hormones going back down. I am not sure when I should do. Nobody in our families know just my fiancé and my 2 best friends and his brother who is a dr. So I can't really talk to anybody. Does anybody have any suggestions.

I'm sorry. You should take the anti depressants they should help you

Therapy, I would say.

I called the pregnancy center today and am going to join a support group and get some counseling. Just talking to the lady there made me feel better. I'm hoping this will truly help. Wish me luck  

Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" I'm sorry. You should take the anti depressants they should help you"

agreed.