sex after being molested

When I was 4 and a half I was molested from what I remember....I know I was taken into my closet then touched inappropriatly by a 12 yr old boy....but I don't remember how far it went.... and I'm now 20 and a half yrs old and when my husband and I have sex sometime I feel scared I can't have my head on a pillow and if I feel at all like I'm restrainted I feel like I can't breath...I will tell him to stop and he gets mad at me. And yes he does know I was molested. Does anyone else have a problem like this?

Not that but sometimes I'm not even into it I just go three the motions

My SO knows that sometimes my brain goes into overdrive and I have to stop having sex. He gets that I'm emotionally smurfed in the head. I was molested by my older brother for 6 years. From 4 til 10. I was also rape when I was 16 by my friend. He understands that. He's constantly asking if I'm ok during sex cuz he knows by my face if I start getting scared or paniked.

I used to think about it all the time. Now if I start to think about it I have SO stop while I recooperate & then if I feel better I will let him finish. He understands how hard it is for me sometimes, but I try not to let it get the best of me.

I was the same way, by both my bio-dad and 2 of my uncles, it started from when i was very little up until probably just before i was a teen. I thought it was 100% normal for someone to do that....I had boyfriends all through out my high school year but i never kissed a boy or had sex until i met my fiance. he is the only person(male) who i am comfortable with....I get very scared around men, and ended up having years of counseling. but we couldn't press charges on anyone, because i dont remember any details. The therapist said it was that tormenting. My parents (mom and stepdad who adopted me) had to option to try hypmotism on me, but didn't want to put me through it again....For me it got better when i met my fiance but now i suffer from extreme anxeity....Hope it all works out for you.

no and i was molested at ages 4,6,11,12, 16,17.. i am afraid of older men specially father looking type and i am paranoid like i never leave my kids alone with other kids adults it doesnt matter i trust no one.. to me sex= love and i think that might be why.. the only times i got attention was when somebody was touching me.