Lately i feel like i havent been coping very well - ive got a 19mo and a 2mo.
Im not sure if its just from a general lack of sleep or if im slipping into depression (our NB has horrid reflux & is up all night screaming.. i got to bed at 4.30am this morning and our toddler woke at 7am)
I cant nap during the day because our NB and toddler NEVER sleep at the same time and i cant put our baby down without him fussing.
Im actually to the point where im on the verge of tears most of the day.. im barely managing and in all honesty, if i fell pregnant again would need serious help.. it'd throw me off the deep end.
I feel horrible for robbing my toddler of time with me because i can never put our NB down.. im beginning to resent our NB at times also (i know that sounds horrible )
How do you know when its time to discuss medication with your DR?
I dont look forward to my days anymore.. its like a never ending circle & i want a break.
Some days i wish i wasn't a Mum so i could have a break - more days then not if im honest..
you sound like you do have ppd. You just tell the dr exactly what you said here, it is OK to have ppd your hormones are going crazy and its extremely stressful!! Do you have anyone who could watch one or both kids to give you a break for a couple hours or the night? I would call your dr Monday morning! The sooner you get help, the sooner you will feel better!
I've had this a few times, the feeling that you're completely overwhelmed and just want to cry.. in fact, I've had times where LO is crying and I'm sobbing as well because I can't figure out what it is he wants. I'm sorry things haven't been good for you mama, it sounds like lack of sleep to me.. But maybe make an appointment to talk to your doctor anyway, just in case. Ask SO to watch the kids for a few hours so you can have a sleep and see how you feel then, a few hours sleep can make a world of difference. I really hope you feel better soon!!