so over this smurf

I feel so drained. DH lost his job a while back thankfully I found work. I am working as a CNA at a senior home. I am thankful for the job but it is hard work. I am working nights full time and the job is just hard on your body. I am fine with the hard work but I just wish some of the slack at home would get taken off me since I am the only one in the house working. My MIL and SIL moved in to “help” but I feel like I am getting zero help. MIL is always at her GFs house saying she is looking for work but honestly I think she isn’t really trying. I don’t expect her to come in and save the day but now we are stuck feeding her daughter. So now we just have another mouth to feed but no benefit of another income. I asked DH and SIL to help clean since I worked last night and really needed some sleep when I get home. I wake up to nothing done and them sitting and eating watching tv. When I say anything I am the bad guy. So I get the cleaning done and now doing all the laundry (need my scubs for work). I wish DH could have gone to my sister’s to do the laundry (we don’t have a washer/dryer) since I have to work tonight but nope I am stuck doing it the few hours I have before my shift. I am starting to feel like an outsider in my own home. I don’t know how much longer I can keep this up. Sometime I just feel like taking DS and getting the smurf out. I want DH to go back to how we use to be. We were so happy but now I just feel so alone. I wish I had someone to talk to but my 2 best friends are in different states and I don’t want my family to know all our drama they are a little judgy. I do love DH, I just wish we can be happy again. Sorry for the vent it’s just nice to talk to someone even if it’s just the virtual world.

I know how you feel mama. DH is the only one working right now. (BIL is too, but doesn't pay a single dime to help out as far as the house is concerned). His parents and brother live with us and its extremely difficult to get anything done or clean in the house. I am honestly going insane sitting at home, which is why I am job hunting just so I can escape. DH and I have considered picking up and leaving since we are not happy anymore, but we don't want to see his parents without a place to stay...but we are kicking his brother out.

Just keep your head up, it will get better.

She isn’t even a child she is 18 almost 19 its time to step up. I was out on my own at 17 so I just don’t understand on being so depended at that age. I do love her she is very sweet but its time to grow up. Thank you I sure hope so because I can’t keep doing this.

at least its not like she is 24. Which is the age of BIL...its been a loooooong three years. Heh.

I don't know how you did it for 3 years. Smurf that!

I know...I am honestly still amazed with myself.