Today

Was the second Thanksgiving I've spent away from my LO. It wasn't as bad as I thought but it wasn't as good as I thought either. I guess I'm just getting use to it. I was thinking of all the things I was thankful for today. And I thought of something. The few times that I do get to see her, even though I know we've spent some time apart, it's like she was never gone. She doesn't look different, act different. She's just..her. Like she always was. It's so strange but I'm thankful for that. But when I really start to think about it, a little peice of me dies inside.Cause I know. I know in reality, she's different. In reality, 1 1/2 years have past. When I get her back, I'm affraid I'm going to lose my mind. Or what's left of it. With the reality of things. I so wish a momma on here has dealt with something like this. But overall, my Thanksgiving was great and I'm sure I gained ten pounds   I hope you all did the same.