Quoting lolajessup:" I'm sorry sweetie. Ive heard your story in another thread before. It's not your fault. You couldn't do ... [snip!] ... and nothing can change the inevitable sweetie. I know it's hard. I know it's not fair. But you can't blame yourself. *hugs*"
I know I wouldn't have been able to change it, and that he wasn't happy with his life. I just wish I'd have known. Now that i'm pregnant it makes it so much harder emotionally to keep a strong face. I didn't want to tell my sister not to go because she is a grown woman and all. So I guess feel super alone today even though I went to my moms, which I wasn't even planning to do, but I figured I didn't need to stay inside my house alone on today. I just hate this right now, and I just don't know how to shove it past me. I deal with it fine on most days, and then the days that hurt most like today I just break apart and cry.