Massive mom vent
posted 21st Nov
My mother has spent most of my life hating me. She is absolutely insane, and refuses to see it. There have been so many horrible memories I won't get in to. She thinks every other person on the planet is nuts, and she is the only sane person. I was the only one in my family (me, her, dad, brother) who didn't enable all of her delusions. I refused to coddle her. So I of course got rejected by my family for years. Everyone sees her issues, but I'm the massive bitch for not allowing her to be crazy around me and my kids.
This past weekend she decided to take herself to the ER, throw a massive fit, threaten to kill herself, so she could get locked up in the psych ward. She loves being waited on, and have everyone pay attention to her so she can feel important. This was by no means the first time she has done this.
Now, I would feel bad for her, but she refuses to get help. She has these big blow-ups, gets help, gets 'better" and then it all starts over again within a week.
I finally couldn't take her smurf anymore, and moved 2 years ago. Mars wouldn't be far enough, but I had to settle for Arizona (I'm originally from NY). But now here's the big thing that has me so incredibly pissed tonight. I'm so sick of my brother, who never has to deal with her bs, telling me I need to be there for her, and feel sorry for her, and blah blah blah. He is 2 years younger than me, and was always a momma's boy. Still is, he's 23, almost 24, and has never lived on his own. He can't do anything for himself, has failed at everything, amounted to nothing, yet can never do wrong. I used to be incredibly jealous of him, and resented him, but now I'm just aggravated.
I'm so sick of being told what I need to do and how I need to feel. I do not pity her. I do not feel bad for her. I feel like she deserves to be locked up for the rest of her miserable life. This woman has emotionally tortured me for as long as I can remember. I just can't feel sorry for someone who purposely refuses to get help so she can paid attention to...
AAAAAHHHHHHH, ok, vent over.....still kinda wanna stab someone though