Quoting Spoonful of Jayson:" Thanks! I'm just at a point in my life where I hate myself, but I don't care enough to change it or ... [snip!] ... enough to change it or do the work. All of my energy is going elsewhere and I need to focus on myself. Hopefully I succeed!"
I've been going through the same thing. Can't look at myself in the mirror without crying. I hate myself. Depressed as smurf. I'm the biggest I've ever been in my entire life (even weigh what I weighed at the end of my last pregnancy). You HAVE to have the motivation or someone who will cheer you on and help motivate you. For me it's my husband. We started doing Insanity and eating right a week ago. Today is day 8 of the program. Buy a lot of fresh fruits and veggies to snack on throughout the day. Drink a LOT of water, because a lot of the time your hunger pains are from dehydration. You CAN do it, but you have to want to.
These are the things I have printed and taped to my mirror so I see them every single morning when I wake up:
Good luck mama.