Well it was done today....

I had my abortion... It was terrible, i had the surgical one... Paid $400 extra to be heavily sedated and they gave me a shot that just made me feel loopy and i was awake and felt EVERYTHING. Worst pain ever.... Im just glad its over with... I cried while waiting in the waiting room (waited for almost 3 hours) and cried after seeing the ultrasound. That was the hard part but i wanted to see my baby and i got a copy of it... So far, im doing okay... As much as i didnt wanna do it, i knew it was for the best. I have to focus on straightening my life out and focus on Hannah... Im super sad about my baby... But its in heaven now, and wont be here struggling with everything in this world.... RIP baby, i love you so much...


Heres the pictures i put on my wall today.

Awww, stay strong mama. I can only imagine how hard that was for you.  

Sorry you had to go through that   Hope you recover smoothly!

I'm really sorry. I pray you heal and focus on your gorgeous girl.

Best wishes.

I am so so sorry. I know that wasn't an easy decision, but I'm glad you did what you felt was best. I cant even imagine your pain.

HUGS!

Thanks everyone... So far, the recovery is easy... I get mild cramps but as long as i take motrin they go away pretty quick... Im not feeling very regretful like i thought i would, probably because i know it was the best decision i could make... But looking at the ultrasound picture, i get pretty down...

And when i ask hannah where the baby is, she goes ..."Hes in the sky, i cant reach him..." Then looks up and says "Get him!!!"  

*Hug*
Best wishes.

Quoting Two Princesses:" *Hug* Best wishes."

Thank you! Very much.

Quoting -aycн ѕweez-:" Thank you! Very much."

No problem momma. Anytime.  

I'm so sorry  

I'd get rid of the picture...


Best of luck

Just remember the reasons you did it... It was the best decision for everyone. ((Hugs))

Hope you're feeling better today