Black Friday will be 2 months!!!

8 Weeks ago today, I went through pure HELL to deliver my sleeping baby boy, Lukas Daniel!!! He was supposed to be my 3rd little boy and we were supposed to have a complete family. I was 36 weeks preg, 3 weeks from my C-Section, I stopped feeling him move for a day. Typically its normal for that to happen as you get bigger, but I went to the hospital just in case, thinking I was just overreacting!! No one was with me, just myself, my boys were with my sister!! Hooked up to the fetal monitor, nurse says she cant seem to get his heart tones. My doctor wanted me to go down to Ultrasound, she came with me thank GOD!! He was gone, no heartbeat!!! I cried so hard I thought I might pass out....no one was there with me to hold my hand through this horible news! My other 2 boys were prior sections so I assumed I was just going to have my section that day. I guess its unlawful to do a section on a woman with a fetal demise....my body has never gone into labor on its own. BUT they forced my body to do so, was in labor for 2 days before reaching 9cm!! At that point, 9cm, my uterus ruptured, I lost almost 2 pints of blood, doctor told my hubby an my mom I wasnt going to make it due to my blood loss. I had to have extensive uterine repair along with a c section. Remarkably enough, after repairing my uterus, bleeding slowed down! I almost died trying to deliver my poor sleeping baby.....and Im the one who goes over every detail of this trauma, at least once a week. Im at a loss of what to do, Im going to counseling, trying to get back to a schedule at home. Ive only been home for 6 weeks, and 8 weeks feels just like yesterday! I know no one has gone through exactly what I have, but I can please have some insight on when it will get easier!!!!!???? I need help coping and I dont know how to do so!!!

I'm so sorry that happened but please keep your faith and stay strong.. I just said a prayer for you and your family

Awwww momma I'm so sorry ): prayers for you I really don't know what to say other than that ): I hope it gets easier for you. If you ever just need to let stuff out PM me

My condolences for your loss. I honestly cannot believe they induced you after having 2 c-sections. I didn't know they could do that. I sounds like you are very lucky to be here, momma.
Rest in Paradise, Lukas.