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Never mind I feel better after typing it out.

((((Hugs)))

I'm sorry for your loss, I know your pain  

You're not being a 'big baby' over this. Miscarriage is a very traumatic experience for anyone. You had a life growing inside of you, a little piece of you, and something went wrong, and knowing for 5 minutes, 5 days, or 5 weeks makes no change in that. I hope you find some inner peace, and know that everything happens for a reason, even if we don't see it yet.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Altheda+3:</b>" ((((Hugs))) I'm sorry for your loss, I know your pain   You're not being a 'big baby' over this. Miscarriage ... [snip!] ... change in that. I hope you find some inner peace, and know that everything happens for a reason, even if we don't see it yet."</blockquote>




I even understand it there is no way DH and I would have survived our first year of marriage with a baby ik that sounds horrible but I left him 5 times that first year. We couldn't figure each other out. We butted heads it was no environment I should have been pregnant in a definitely no environment I should have had a baby in I'm thankful that the baby wasn't caught up in all our first year of marriage fights

But then when I had DD it's like a light flipped for DH and he's a whole new person I always wonder if ot would have happened that way for the first baby.

Always with the what ifs. At 2 am.   it doesn't help that the same day I lost the baby is the same day my dad had a heart attack he didn't talk to me after I told him I was pregnant. 18 days of no talking to him after 18 years of my life. He was in a coma and doesn't remember anything my grandma still blames me for his heart attack.