Wow..I don't even know where to begin. Tomorrow will be 6 years since you left us...SIX YEARS. I can't even believe it. I remember like it was yesterday. I was waiting for Sarah to come pick me up from my house so we could go to school. When she got there I got in the car and went to grab the last part of her cigarette (she always gave me the end of it) and was just talking away..until I saw her staring at me and the look on her face...well lets just say I knew something was wrong. She said, "Tina..Jonn Jonn is dead" ...and I'm like "What are you talking about?" and she said it again..and told me that her mom saw it on the news that morning. I was just like "No, your mom is wrong and probably just confused him with someone else." Well we get to school and I notice another one of our friends in our "group" wasn't there. That is when I kind of started believing it. I was still in complete denial though..until I heard this girl talking about it. Her dad was a police officer and she was talking about how her dad was chasing you from the gas station and that you crashed and died in the process and she proceeded to laugh. Don't worry though Jonn Jonn, you know I stood up and started freaking out on that bitch. She didn't even know what to do because you know me, I'm normally quiet around others..unless it's our friends of course! I stormed out of that hallway into the gym and just sat in there not knowing what to do. I proceeded with my classes...everything was kind of a blur though. I remember a couple of weeks before you were talking to me about my new boyfriend at the time. You straight up told me you didn't like him and didn't trust him and told me to be careful. Boy were you right! Unfortunately I found that out the hard way, but hey! I'm not with him anymore. I should have listened to you. I just wish I could have said goodbye. It isn't fair. Why couldn't you just stay away from that gas station and the alcohol??? You were doing so well Jonn Jonn and you were so proud of yourself for completing rehab and staying clean...then you relapsed and got into that single car accident. I wish I could have been more supportive with helping you to stay away from alcohol..I really do, but I was only 17...I didn't know much then. I do now, but that doesn't matter..nor will it help or change anything. Anway...I miss you and love you Jonn Jonn...so much. Just know I am always thinking of you and thinking about what kind of life you would have right now if you were still here. I see your "baby" brother all the time in town..he seems to be doing really well! Which I know makes you happy. I hope to see you again someday.
OH Jonn Jonn..picture taken right after you took a shot of peppermint schnapps lol. Before your rehab, obviously
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