Quoting Brandie:]:" I know, as long as I try, things will even out. But it seems like soooo far away. I almost can't see ... [snip!] ... when I talk to her, and she calls me momma, it helps me get through. I'm such a sad sack of smurf right now, sorry for the rant."
Your time with her will NEVER run out, just remember that. Even if it takes a few years for you to get custody of her and make a wonderful life for her, it'll be worth it. You have what, 16 years? to get custody of her. Focus on that. Focus on the life that you will eventually give her instead of being sad about where the situation is at right now mama.