As some saw, I was in the ER this morning receiving fluids and nutrients.
My SO just brought up something I didn't even fathom.
I was severely anorexic before I got pregnant, with a BMI of 15.3 at my lowest weight. He thinks I was subconsciously starving myself. The thought terrifies me. I've done so well lately. I've been eating, but maybe only the bare minimum without noticing.
He can't monitor me all the time, and that scares me.
I always figured I'd relapse at least one more time but I thought I wouldn't be providing for a fetus when I did.