Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" I think I really just needed that out...thanks everyone. I just want to give her the best and some days ... [snip!] ... It's just really catching up on me. I know I need help but I just don't have anywhere to get it....I'm so glad I have you guys."
ALL this just means you're a great mommy! that you even think that way is amazing! you're not selfish! you don't have to have everything to be a good mommy
we're not rich by any means lol but my kids have what they need and then some. i have clothes but its all houseware-i dont go shopping or get my hair/nails done. im literally home 24/7 unless my ex mother in law takes them. then i go to sleep early hahaa.
you probably do just need to get out of the house and let loose! you're not JUST a mommy, you're a woman too. even if you need to go outside and just be in quietness and smoke a cig..do it lol every little bit helps!
if/when she does nap, id recommend napping too! i still do lol
i dont eat until they're in bed at night...it's a problem. try snacking when you feed her, like when you know she's hungry grab yourself a snack too
sleep when she does, etc
you're doing fine mama! i've been there and worse. i had PPD really bad after my second.
you got this! xx