I'm having a mental breakdown.

Guys I can't figure this mom thing out on my own. I have literally no moms in my family I'm close to, my adopted mom got me when I was like 2 or something so she's no help right now, my biological mom didn't raise me or my brother so she's no help, no one in my family is close to me so I can't just ask people for help.

I have NO idea what I'm doing now that Addie is getting older.

I keep thinking about what to feed her and what games I should be playing, should I be reading to her, what am I doing for her emotional and mental needs, it's so much!

I wasn't ready to do this this young. I'm seriously freaking out because it's all hitting me at once.

She's starting throwing fits about a month ago, and she's stopped taking naps. She's only 13mo. Guys I literally honestly have no idea what the smurf I'm doing. I'm trying my best, she's clean and fed, but I should be doing more but I don't know what more is!

I need help. I don't know what help I need but I need something. =[

I'm the same way, except my mom raised me and my siblings, but she's no help at all. If I have questions, I come here. I didn't know about co-sleeping or CIO or ERF until I became active here. I look at parenting websites to help fill in the rest about what I should be doing with LO and go from there.

First of all, I just want you to know that (IMO) every mother goes through all of these feelings, whether they're young or old.

Especially when they're throwing tantrums or acting out, it's hard to remember that everything is okay... and it's very hard to not have friends with kids.

<3 Sending hugs!

Sounds like you're doing great. Motherhood gets extremely stressful at times!!!!

My son threw a ton of fits at that age too!
And as for what to feed her, try pasta, soup, toast with jelly, crackers, etc etc
Play hand games with her. She won't understand but try patt a cake etc....
Sing lots of songs!!!
Do ring around the rosie.
Read her books all the time too! the touch and feel ones are the best.

You're doing fine!!!!!

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" Guys I can't figure this mom thing out on my own. I have literally no moms in my family I'm close to, ... [snip!] ... but I should be doing more but I don't know what more is! I need help. I don't know what help I need but I need something. =["

First just take a deep breath! You getting stressed out is not going to help. Motherhood is hard on anyone. I feel th same way you do all i can tell you is just try your best, as long as your LO is happy, changed and fed than your doing nothing wrong. If you wanna start reading her things there are libraries with so many books you can take LO there and let them pick out books for you to read.

Google ideas? They learn through play. Get some puzzles, color, sing songs, do the alphabet and numbers things like that.

Sweetie, no parent knows what they're doing. You can have as many ideas about parenting as you want, but parenting is something you have to learn as you go. There are plenty of websites out there that can give you some pointers, but there is no right answer, being as every parent is different, and every child is different.

Just remember, as long as she's healthy and fed well, and seems to have a happy disposition, you're probably doing a good job.
Don't freak out honey.   You're doing a good job.

Thanks guys. I'm just seriously fighting an anxiety attack right now. I'm sitting here bawling and DD is just laughing he ass off because she thinks it's the funniest thing.

I don't know how people do this alone, or do it alone with more than one. Everyone keeps telling me it gets easier but from what I've seen it just gets scarier.

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" Thanks guys. I'm just seriously fighting an anxiety attack right now. I'm sitting here bawling and DD ... [snip!] ... or do it alone with more than one. Everyone keeps telling me it gets easier but from what I've seen it just gets scarier. "

That just goes to show you don't NEED to go above and beyond. Your kid doesn't need flashcards or baby einstein or fancy toys. They just need you!!
And it gets SOOOOO much easier believe me I wish my son could stay 2 1/2 forever lol

My oldest is 6 and my lil 1 is 1 and I still have no clue what I'm doing... try getting a routine going, Jades almost and she's a hot mess, kids do their own thing, they learn when their ready, and try and do what they want, even when they have no clue what they want, *hence the fits/meltdowns*

as long as she's healthy, and safe ur doing a good job!!! Jade was 12 months and wanted nothing to do with books and reading, at around 2ish she started becoming interested in the pictures, letters, numbers, now she can count to 40 in english and spanish, knows both aphabets, and shapes, even the harder 1s that I still have to count the sides and translate in my head lol
she hates singing and dancing, it embarrases her, so we don't do it... you'll find out soon enough what she's into and what she wants u to help her with... its wrecks my brain daily but we all go through it  

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" Guys I can't figure this mom thing out on my own. I have literally no moms in my family I'm close to, ... [snip!] ... but I should be doing more but I don't know what more is! I need help. I don't know what help I need but I need something. =["

*tear*   it's ok mama! just BREATHE!! you're not alone- we all have a breakdown eventually-i do here and there lol
i don't know how old you are but it's not easy not matter what age you are! i'm 25 and have 2kids (3/2) and i'm still trying to figure smurf out. hell..my mom is 45 and she doesn't know everything either lol and i NEVER would ask her for advice, she wasn't what i'd call "the best"
point to my endless ranting is it's ok! there's alot you can do, but dont stress yourself out!
the best thing IMO is to talk to your LO alllll the time! i stay home with mine, with my first it was just me and her at home ALL day...so if i changed her diaper i told her or sang it to her, if i had to walk away to wash my hands i told her "mommy will be right back" reading is also great! do little mommy/baby games like patty cake! there's so much you can do, but you don't have to do something 24/7
she's alive and clean and fed and that's the most important!
you can do this sweetie  

I think I really just needed that out...thanks everyone.

I just want to give her the best and some days I wonder how the best could possibly be me. We don't have a lot of money, I barely have any clothes that fit me and some days I don't eat much because I'm so focused on her and giving her those things . It's just really catching up on me. I know I need help but I just don't have anywhere to get it....I'm so glad I have you guys.

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" I think I really just needed that out...thanks everyone. I just want to give her the best and some days ... [snip!] ... It's just really catching up on me. I know I need help but I just don't have anywhere to get it....I'm so glad I have you guys."

Children dont care how much money you have, just that you love them. Hope things get better for you

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" I think I really just needed that out...thanks everyone. I just want to give her the best and some days ... [snip!] ... It's just really catching up on me. I know I need help but I just don't have anywhere to get it....I'm so glad I have you guys."

ALL this just means you're a great mommy! that you even think that way is amazing! you're not selfish! you don't have to have everything to be a good mommy  
we're not rich by any means lol but my kids have what they need and then some. i have clothes but its all houseware-i dont go shopping or get my hair/nails done. im literally home 24/7 unless my ex mother in law takes them. then i go to sleep early hahaa.
you probably do just need to get out of the house and let loose! you're not JUST a mommy, you're a woman too. even if you need to go outside and just be in quietness and smoke a cig..do it lol every little bit helps!
if/when she does nap, id recommend napping too! i still do lol
i dont eat until they're in bed at night...it's a problem. try snacking when you feed her, like when you know she's hungry grab yourself a snack too  
sleep when she does, etc
you're doing fine mama! i've been there and worse. i had PPD really bad after my second.
you got this! xx

Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:" I think I really just needed that out...thanks everyone. I just want to give her the best and some days ... [snip!] ... It's just really catching up on me. I know I need help but I just don't have anywhere to get it....I'm so glad I have you guys."

Your words show that she has everything she needs  
Just you wanting to give her the best will always be enough!!