I can't believe it...

After two losses and getting pregnant with Emma, I thought that was my God-given green light to have children. I guess I'm just smurfing stupid for thinking this. I'm losing twins. I've always wanted twins. It makes me really question a higher power. If there really was a God, he wouldn't let a woman suffer a loss. Much less four. He would have never invented endometriosis. He never would wish the hurt on anyone. SO and I didn't talk to each other yesterday after we had a fight over literally NOTHING that morning... I just feel like falling apart. I'm torn into pieces and have to keep it together for DD. I might not have necessarily wanted this pregnancy, but I would have at least given them up for adoption. But yet, I have another pregnancy ripped from my very uterus. I hate everything today. I really needed to vent. Sorry, ladies.

So sorry mama, I had 2 losses followed by a healthy baby followed by another loss and I thought the same that I would be ok because I had a healthy baby before. It really sucks. I'm sorry you have to go through it too *hugs*

I'm so sorry. Saying a prayer for you and your family.

hun i have lost twins and a little girl before i had my son they told me i could get pregnant but i wouldn't be able to give birth i know how you feel it is like not trying to put down or anything it made me feel like i wasn't a woman since i wasn't able to give birth to a child well i found a new doctor and i have a incompient cervix(where my cervix opens up to early)

Quoting Starstuff:" So sorry mama, I had 2 losses followed by a healthy baby followed by another loss and I thought the same ... [snip!] ... same that I would be ok because I had a healthy baby before. It really sucks. I'm sorry you have to go through it too *hugs*"

It just really sucks for anybody to have to go through this. I'm so sorry you had to go through it, too. At least we each have a healthy baby. That's what I try to keep telling myself, anyway.

Quoting Taste the Rainbow:" hun i have lost twins and a little girl before i had my son they told me i could get pregnant but i wouldn't ... [snip!] ... able to give birth to a child well i found a new doctor and i have a incompient cervix(where my cervix opens up to early) "

That's how I feel. Like a total failure as a woman. I found faith in a higher power after I had DD. This just makes me reevaluate everything all over again.

Quoting   Emma Jo's Momma  :" It just really sucks for anybody to have to go through this. I'm so sorry you had to go through it, too. At least we each have a healthy baby. That's what I try to keep telling myself, anyway."

If its any consolation I went on to have another healthy baby after the 3rd loss so its possible. Keep loving on your little girl, thats what helped me the most.

Quoting Starstuff:" If its any consolation I went on to have another healthy baby after the 3rd loss so its possible. Keep loving on your little girl, thats what helped me the most."

I can't help but to love her. She's my everything. I'm so glad I got to have a child. Even if it will be my last, or even if I go on to have another child down the road. I would love to give her a sibling later on. I guess I just need to find what little hope I have at this point to help me carry on.

Emma Jo's Momma - I'm so sorry honey. Not fair. ((hugs))

Quoting laxmommy:" Emma Jo's Momma - I'm so sorry honey. Not fair. ((hugs))"

Thank you. ((hugs back))