he's three weeks today.

Idk whether to be happy, sad, upbeat or miserable. Lately I've felt like my emotions are all over the place. LO turns three weeks old today (wednesday), and it just seems like this first month is inching by at turtle pace...don't get me wrong here, I love my sweet baby boy, it's just I constantly feel like I'm in a blur and things just...are. Yeah maybe I'm crazy for feeling like this, I just don't know who else to talk to about it...I feel like all I do is feed, change diapers, wash bottles, and mix formula. I know all this stuff just comes along with being a new mom, but I'm seriously worn out. I haven't washed clothes in like two weeks and lord knows I could use some sprucing up..i just wear my pajamas all day. I haven't quite figured out how to balance LO time and me time. I try to keep him awake as much as possible during the day because he absolutely refuses to sleep at night, so once i finally give in and let him fall asleep during the day, i do as well (because i dont get sleep at night)...leaving house work and me time out the door. I seriously feel like i'm losing my mind.

You'll get into the swing of things soon. It took me a few months to settle into motherhood and realize what my life now consisted of.

It takes a while to adjust and figure out how to get into the new swing of things. Once your baby is a little older and doesn't need constant mommy loving and gets into a decent sleeping schedule it will get a little better. Life will never be quite like it was before. Don't forget to ask for help if you need it though, a few hours away can be really beneficial.

Have you talked to someone about PPD? It sounds like you may be at risk. I hope things get better mama  

I'm not looking forward to going through all of that again! It does get better soon, though, I promise.

The first two months are the absolute worst. I was always told "sleep when baby sleeps" and for 6 weeks that was my mantra! He'll start staying awake more in the day time, and if you don't have a swing, I definitely say get one asap. Even just a baby seat would do wonders for you. I know things seem hectic right now, but it's okay if your house is a wreck and you haven't had a shower in a while. Don't try to keep up with your old lifestyle right away. Hell, DD is 13mo now and I'm still lucky if I get more than three showers a week. You need to just focus on you and the baby right now, try to get DH to help out more around the house.

Also, you could talk to your doctor about PPD. It may not seem like it's a problem now, but it builds up if it goes untreated. It's normal to feel detached and even resentful to the baby for the first few weeks. It DOES get better though. It gets SO much better I promise! And soon!