Seeking help for eating disorder

I have known for a long time that I have an eating disorder. I've always had a bad relationship with food, but the last few years I have struggled with bulimia. I don't purge, I fast, which is why I don't think people have noticed and I've gained SO much weight. I spend so much time just absolutely hating myself. I will binge eat for a day or two, then feel very guilty fast as long as I can, two or three days. Eventually I will promise myself I won't do it again and eat "normally" for a week or two, then end up binging again. I don't know why but right now I am coming off of the longest binge I've ever had... its been almost a week. I have been eating uncontrollably. Today I fasted. I confided in a BG friend, so she will know who I am if she sees this, but I need to tell someone I know for real. I need to get help. I'm so tired of hating myself and my body. I want to tell my husband but I've had a lot of other unrelated health issues since we have been married and I already feel like a complete failure of a wife, like I've been a huge burden on him. I sometimes think he must really regret marrying me. That stems from nothing he has said or done because he's never been anything but loving and supportive.

I want help. I need help. But I don't know what to do to get help. Even if I tell someone... what then? We are so broke, I don't know how we would afford any treatment or therapy.

Sounds like anorexia, not bulimia. You definitely need to see someone though. Try counseling or talk to your regular doctor.

Quoting Jays*Mama:" Sounds like anorexia, not bulimia. You definitely need to see someone though. Try counseling or talk to your regular doctor."

It's bulimia because I binge. There are purging and non-purging types. I've done a lot of research.

<blockquote><b>Quoting BG Secrets:</b>" It's bulimia because I binge. There are purging and non-purging types. I've done a lot of research."</blockquote>

<blockquote><b>Quoting BG Secrets:</b>" It's bulimia because I binge. There are purging and non-purging types. I've done a lot of research."</blockquote>




maybe speak with your regular Dr. maybe he can suggest the next step?