I've been wanting a second child since my daughter was 2. That just wasen't in the cards though. My first child is now 12.
My periods have been screwed up since my daughter, I would go a year and only have it 2 or 3 times. SO I have no idea how far a long I am...in August I think I had it. Sept I had 2 days of the "you're about to bleed" bleeding then nothing. October, I had horrendous cramping and pain for 15 minutes then nothing a week later I realized it and took a test. Then another test. Then two more test.
I had an appt. at the first place I could find that would take my insurance that wasen't weeks away. It was November 6th, 2012. I did not like the doctor at all. She was very rough with my exam and ultrasound to the point that I was in bed for hours afterwards with cramping. She said she saw a gestational sack in my uterus but nothing inside it, and she could not find my left ovary no matter how hard she jabbed me with that thing. So she told me I might be ectopic. And she couldn't tell me how far along I was, but guessed maybe 2 weeks.
I've made a new appointment at a different place for this coming week...Hopefully it will go better. The dr wouldnt even give me a copy of the ultrasound she printed out so I could see it...I was grimacing and had my eyes shut most the time so I didn't even get to see what she did..not pleased with her at all.
So I'm scared, terrified, and a whole bunch of other stuff. We've been wanting this for so long I don't know what I would do if something bad happens..It's killing me..I want to look at baby stuff and make registries and tell everyone but I know I can't because that'll make everything so much worse if the worst happens. I just really needed to vent. Thank you for listening <3