I posted last night with no response...

I'm trying again because I don't know what to do.


Towards the end of my pregnancy with DD, I began to get very depressed and scared. I figured it was the fear of not knowing what to expect with bringing a baby home. After I had her, I began getting anxiety and had a severe fear that something was going to happen to her. My doctor assured me that it was normal to feel that way and prescribed me Zoloft. I stopped taking it because it made me lethargic. As time went on the anxiety went away with the exception of a sad thought that raided my brain every once in a while.

As of late, I've been feeling panicky and depressed. I can't help thinking that something bad may happen to my children and I won't be able to protect them. I'm terrified that something horrible is going to happen and that DD and I would be separated and she'll be alone and scared. I want her at my hip all the time.

WTF should I do? How can I possibly live a happy life feeling like this all the time? Someone please help.  

You call your OB. You would benefit from some counseling and possibly try the meds again.

Try different meds, hun. Sounds like Zoloft was not right for you, but there is something out there that will work. I have tried a few different things myself, and what worked best for me was Vibryyd. Only through trial an error can you find the right course for yourself.

Yes speak to your dr they may have to try different meds that will be a better suit with you good luck

Call your ob, you could be having ppd. He could get you into counseling and also starting a different medication.

Hmmm.. well sorry you feel that way, but don't obsess about it.. May be easier said than done.. but I have bad dreams all the time and worry about my kids, but i dont let that fear over run my life or affect my daily living.

Of course, people not reply because of the "fear" of retaliation of other board members. But if you have tried prescriptions and counselling, then my first suggestion is to try God. A lot of people on here (and maybe you yourself) have a negative view or disbelief in God.. but once you Know him, and trust Him and believe in Him, He actually does take all your fears and anxieties away.. Changes your perspective too.. So I'm gonna leave it at that, but prayer works.. I have seen miracles, experienced miracles and over come very bad situations as a result of my faith when professional medical approaches have failed.

You are a good mom and wanting the best for them is natural and even some worry too.. You may have reasons in your past that cause you to worry.. i know for me.. my mom died when i was 17.. so i always worry that I will die and how my kids will grow up w/o me, etc etc... anyway, I pray peace over your life.

What everyone is posting is right. Remember, your body is the equivalent of a chemical reactor, not to mention a highly sophisticated production factory! You've just gone through an INSANE amount of restructuring YOU, between the last weeks of nurturing life, the crazies of labor, and now the reclaiming of your body. Depression is very common. It can get out of control quickly. Remember that just because you are dealing with depression right now, it isn't necessarily a forever thing... Your body got the equivalent to the computer's "blue screen of death"... Something internal got really out of whack. Keep in constant contact with your doctor, medication and counseling can work wonders! Reach out to family and friends as well, we are coming up on the holidays, so that means more stress. Don't be afraid to ask for help, and let your body have time to readjust.

Best of luck to you...

Quoting Captain Spaulding:" Call your ob, you could be having ppd. He could get you into counseling and also starting a different medication."

  
I had PPD after DD1 was born  

Thank you everyone for your responses. I don't really want to be go on meds. Perhaps some counseling would help.