re: Did you just want answers? *miscarriage

Quoting zombie.:" see mine affirmed my belief in nothing even more. if there was a god, im sure he wouldnt be so cruel. "

I'm sorry.   I found absolute comfort in Him, but I can totally understand how it could go to opposite way.

Quoting Mum-of-2:" Well when you got answers, was it satisfying? I mean did it help in the whole "wtf is wrong with me?" or did it hurt more knowing why?"

It was nice to know what's going on, but like I said, it doesn't guarantee another healthy pregnancy.

Quoting Mum-of-2:" Well when you got answers, was it satisfying? I mean did it help in the whole "wtf is wrong with me?" or did it hurt more knowing why?"

It was honestly more upsetting to me.
like why me?
how come women who dont want children get pregnant on one night stands get to keep their pregnancy/child?
how come women who dont want babies and abuse them get to have babies?
its not fair that my husband and i have been together 8 years and were stuck with six losses and a very rough pregnancy.

this pregnancy, while very welcomed has played a huge toll on my body. ive had SCH's, bled MULTIPLE times with him, had bv 6 times, found out the extra hormones in my body cause hormone induced brain tumors that I may/may not have to have removed - depends on if they go away on their own - so possible brain surgery, my auto-immune disease has cause my liver to start shutting down, the progesterone i was on for 12 weeks has cause issues, ive had preterm labor. i had to take one shot a day from 3.5 weeks-36+2 and now i'm on two shots a day until i deliver.