Relationship problems... Do i walk away?

I've been with my boyfriend for 6 years. We have had many ups and downs over this time. He's battled drug addictions and mood swings that have really affected me. Last year i couldnt take anymore and i cheated on him. I told him about it and we decided to work things out. I'm not sure if it's the cheating or its just that we dont get along anymore but we have a really bad relationship now. I know i was in the wrong. I've admitted it and tried to fix it. He wasnt the greatest person either though. I was mentally abused and dealt with the angry person he became from drugs. Anyways i believe we have moved past that in a sense but things are awful between us. We dont get along at all anymore... i feel like there's no love or friendship there... it's like an on and off thing... Sometimes he just blows up at me for no reason at all. I'm at the point where i dont know what i should do... Should i walk away from him and the family we have (3 year old son) or should i just keep trying to make it work. I feel like were just roommates half the time. I still love him and would like to make it work but i think im at the point where i'm hurting myself and our family more by staying with him... Any advice for this? I'm really confused and just dont know what to do...

It sounds like you already know that the relationship is not working. The big question is how to leave on good terms so that you can continue to co-parent your son together in a friendly way.

Have you to tried councilling? Would you both be willing otherwise you could walk away too. If you feel there is hope giv counsiling a go if not walk away

holy crap, sounds like i just wrote this .
Im in the same exact boat!!!
Only weve been together 3 yrs , and have a 1 yr old.
Its easier to say you want to walk away than to do it.

Quoting oxX I Heart Gavin Xxo:" I've been with my boyfriend for 6 years. We have had many ups and downs over this time. He's battled ... [snip!] ... myself and our family more by staying with him... Any advice for this? I'm really confused and just dont know what to do..."

Have you set down and told him all this...what does he say..how does he feel communication is very important.

Quoting Lotusmama:" It sounds like you already know that the relationship is not working. The big question is how to leave on good terms so that you can continue to co-parent your son together in a friendly way."

Well i think like this some days and then other days i feel like we have a chance. I know we need to be on good terms for our son. That's a given!

Quoting Mrs cree:" Have you to tried councilling? Would you both be willing otherwise you could walk away too. If you feel there is hope giv counsiling a go if not walk away"

no we haven't. That's something to consider though. Thanks!

Honestly, it sounds like a very unhappy situation and I'd never want to see a child go through this. I say leave him and try to work on your issues while living apart.

Quoting Brandy&TayTay:" holy crap, sounds like i just wrote this . Im in the same exact boat!!! Only weve been together 3 yrs , and have a 1 yr old. Its easier to say you want to walk away than to do it."

Exactly why i havent left... It's so hard to walk away from the father to your child!

Quoting aubriesmom:" Have you set down and told him all this...what does he say..how does he feel communication is very important. "

he doesn't listen... it seems like he just doesnt care anymore... I dont bother trying to talk to him...

Quoting Just Ames:" Honestly, it sounds like a very unhappy situation and I'd never want to see a child go through this. I say leave him and try to work on your issues while living apart."

I know. :-( i hate to admit that it's so unhealthy, but it is...

Quoting oxX I Heart Gavin Xxo:" I've been with my boyfriend for 6 years. We have had many ups and downs over this time. He's battled ... [snip!] ... myself and our family more by staying with him... Any advice for this? I'm really confused and just dont know what to do..."

sounds like you should leave just explain to him its not working and that it would be best for you him and your son if you two went your separate ways but make sure you two still raise your son together

Quoting oxX I Heart Gavin Xxo:" I know. :-( i hate to admit that it's so unhealthy, but it is..."

If you know, deep down this is the truth please do what's best for your child. He deserves to live in a happy, healthy environment and he deserves a happy mother and father too! Even if it's while living apart.

Quoting oxX I Heart Gavin Xxo:" Exactly why i havent left... It's so hard to walk away from the father to your child!"

that and with then doing drugs they will turn it around on you.
Well if you leave ill do it even more, or you cheated on me and it made it worse, i promise ill stop, .... idk all the lies.

SO is a recovering addict. So, I'm familiar with the lies, deflection of guilt and mood swings. HOWEVER, if he's willing to change, and truly wants to, he can. I know it sounds annoyingly optimistic, but people CAN change.
Is in any type of NA group?