Are you smurfing kidding me!
posted 6th Nov
I've so had it with the navy. I want to just pack up my apartment and go home and just give the navy a big old finger on the way out. I've been going for medical for depression and anxiety (coupled with my temper and OCD) for about two months now. Since I've started going I got moved to a new department, they have me working 2330-0730 shift. Fri sat sun and every other thurs. I've had two of my counselors tell them not to put me on those hours because the stress has been causing me to regress in the progress I've been making overcoming my issues but my office refuses. They've said it's only a recommendation and they're going to treat it as such. To make matters worse I now have to put my son in the 24/7 daycare on base which is fine but I have to wait for an opening. They aren't waiting till my son is in to have me worki g nights. In the next three days between my work and dhs I'll get about 4 hours of sleep because of the hours in my office, my medical appointments, and caring for ds. I feel like I'm totally loosing it. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. No one will listen to me when I talk. Not even my friends. I feel like no one is trying to help me and no one understands or cares. I just want to get better. I'm tired of being depressed, anxious, angry, and just down on myself all the time but every time I start making progress something happens that causes me to back track and get worse than I was to begin with. Sorry I know it's pointless i just have to get it all out. I'm so sick of not feeling like anyone listens to me or cares about what I'm going through.
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