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I'm sooooo sorry for your loss. You're poem was beautiful. I've never been in your spot but it seems so wrong to force abortion on any one. When I get asked how many children I have I so want to say 3 but then more questions may begin. Some ppl I tell them how many & that I had lost them . Etc. you're story gave me chills & bright tears to my eyes.
Thanks for sharing!
You have a positive way of thinking & that helps with a loss.
Hang in there Mamma.
Btw the medium that told you, was crazy   just know you have an angel.always

Thank you for your kind words. I likewise am sorry for your loss.

 

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ellie Shikari:</b>" Thank you for your kind words. I likewise am sorry for your loss.  "</blockquote>




No problem & Ty.

Wow I have yet to hear anybody with a story just like mine. I went through the same thing, my then at the time boyfriend and parents basically all told me I was doing it. I was living with my boyfriend at the time and he said if I didn't do it I had to get out of his house and my parents said I wasn't aloud to live under there roof pregnant so they basically pushed it on me. Sorry you had to go through that it really sucks when those people push things on you. I agree with you I would have kept it too if it wasn't for them. I am about to have my daughter on Tuesday and it makes me think about that baby even more  

Thank you. It really is something that stays with you forever. I agree that having another baby was hard and brought back so many memories. At least I think it has made me love my daughter even more because I'm terrified of something happening to her. Your parents sound just like mine then :/ *sigh*

Quoting Ellie Shikari:" Thank you. It really is something that stays with you forever. I agree that having another baby was hard ... [snip!] ... my daughter even more because I'm terrified of something happening to her. Your parents sound just like mine then :/ *sigh*"

Yeah sure does stay with you forever. And I know I believe it will make people much closer to there children. Yeah they were a little crazy back then. I felt the same way very angry at them for years I never could say anything though. And I continued the relationship with my ex but I had such hatred for him I seriously was with him but didn't even love him anymore and didn't realize it either. Once we ended I realized I just honestly hated him ever since that happen. This is why I plan to protect my daughter and do things different then my parents did so she never has to go through being put in a situation to make a decision.

Quoting Justine's Mama:" Yeah sure does stay with you forever. And I know I believe it will make people much closer to there ... [snip!] ... and do things different then my parents did so she never has to go through being put in a situation to make a decision. "

Not long after my abortion I found out he was cheating on me anyway. What a jerk. He also used it against me in arguments, like it was all my fault. Yeah, if my daughter ever came to me and said she was pregnant I'd make sure anything she did was her own decision. Even if she was young like I was I wouldn't want her to have to go through the trauma that I did. I wish you all the best with your daughter, I'm sure she will be a very loved little girl  

Quoting Ellie Shikari:" Not long after my abortion I found out he was cheating on me anyway. What a jerk. He also used it against ... [snip!] ... go through the trauma that I did. I wish you all the best with your daughter, I'm sure she will be a very loved little girl  "

Yeah sadly I stayed with that jerk for 4 more years after that and only for him to continually cheat on me. He admitted once I gave him another chance and stayed then I kept catching him from stupid girls rubbing it in my face. So one day I got fed up and packed my crap and left for good. Best thing I ever did, at first it was hard but honestly I realized I didn't even look at him the same since going through that with him and how he acted and treated me. He was so cruel he use to scream and get abusive telling me I had to do it and that if I didn't I would be a single mom and that he would never ever see the child or take care of it or give me any money nothing. It was one of the worst times in my life ever. And to make it worse he took me to the clinic to get it done then took me home to my parents house and I was so super emotional and so I called him and he was super rude like I don't have time for you I am busy and I don't even want to be with you anymore. So basically he just made sure I got rid of his child and then threw me to the curb.

Quoting Justine's Mama:" Yeah sadly I stayed with that jerk for 4 more years after that and only for him to continually cheat ... [snip!] ... I don't even want to be with you anymore. So basically he just made sure I got rid of his child and then threw me to the curb. "

He sounds like an absolute smurf. I hope he doesn't ever do the same to someone else. You did the right thing in leaving, but I'm sure you know that. It changed how I looked at my ex too, especially as the baby was planned. I didn't understand how he could change his mind like that.

Quoting Ellie Shikari:" He sounds like an absolute smurf. I hope he doesn't ever do the same to someone else. You did the ... [snip!] ... how I looked at my ex too, especially as the baby was planned. I didn't understand how he could change his mind like that. "

Some men just suck. Yeah ours was a accident I don't even know how I wound up pregnant I just did. I even tried to do adoption because I was really scared to have a abortion but I was told they needed his consent and my dad would't allow me to do adoption anyways. My father was adopted so I don't know but it sucked the night before I was so scared I told my mom I didn't want to do it I wanted to give it up and she was okay with it but my dad was like heck no your getting a abortion. Yeah sadly me and my ex have mutual friends on Facebook. So I see him commenting sometimes, saw he has a new girlfriend. All I can say is I feel bad for her ass. He is the biggest ass on earth, when I was packing my crap to leave he tried to tell me he would have a kid with another girl if they had a great relationship after a year to make me feel like smurf and that he will meet a better girl and move out of the town with her. Funny thing is his ass is still in that town living like a immature jerk and I moved out of the area with my new boyfriend. Stupid men he use to make me get so sad when he rubbed crap in my face. I am so glad I left him. Some men really suck.

Sorry your parents weren't more understanding. Yeah same here with my ex he keeps appearing on facebook. He'd also tell me those things like 'I'll get a new girlfriend and have a baby with her' but now he just goes out with school children, I wonder how many of them he'll get pregnant. Oh well, screw him and screw your ex too. We both have our daughters now and that's what matters.

Quoting Ellie Shikari:" Sorry your parents weren't more understanding. Yeah same here with my ex he keeps appearing on facebook. ... [snip!] ... of them he'll get pregnant. Oh well, screw him and screw your ex too. We both have our daughters now and that's what matters."

Your right, forget them. Seriously though I was the only one who went through that with my parents. Wish no one else did either but I guess smurf happens. I hate when I see woman on here say they would make there child have a abortion if they got pregnant at a young age. They really have no clue what it is like to be forced to do something.